Ok

So I am Back it has been a really difficult time for me. I have to be more careful. Otherwise this next time will be more than a problem. I can't help the circumstances but I can help the way I respond to them. I will have to be more careful. You will have to forgive me for the time that I have been away it has been really stressful as well as being life changing.

Rooting

So How much better would it be if we had some one rooting for us in our corner. It makes it so much easier to move forward when your Out by knowing that you have people rooting for you. Willing you to succeed. If I could just find one person to root for me. Even knowing that I will never be able to come Out. It would make things a lot easier knowing that there is a someone.

Normal

Well in one way |I need to return to normal. what I mean about that is I have to restore the blood in my Alcohol levels.lol. It was a little bit hectic. I have a very small Vac coming up in Two weeks. It might be the last one for awhile so far as I know. So the nails are back to normal. had to do a bit of tidying up. Hide all the Girls stuff and wash all the Panties. Sounds weird does it not.

What

What is it that we need to feel that we can accept ourselves. I cant imagine that doing your nails will make you love yourself anymore than you would if you did not. I think that if we are comfortable with ourselves then it would not really matter what others feel or think about us. Acceptance is not external its comes from within.