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All the Time

I seriously don't know why it happens. Quite often I think to myself I must post this thought on my Blog and discuss it. Then when it comes to Posting I have forgotten completely about what I wanted to post. lol. its kinda like when you intend doing something and then on the way to do it you remember something and by the time you get to were you wanted to go initially  You have forgotten what it was you intended doing in the first place. This happens to me quite a bit. Not too often but enough to notice That I do it.

Just a Thought

The thing I appreciate about "My Transsexual Summer" is that the girls were Representative of those in reality. Not all Trans Girls look fabulous. Now when you go through all the Vlogs on You Tube I am still yet to come across one that does not loo good or stunning. Which by the way is not Representative of the broader spectrum of T Girls. Some people are just blessed with good looks that translate into a good looking T Girl. Which is the curse of Our Society in General. What about the norm not the exception. For example Beth Ditto she is gorgeous but not the Norm. I can think of a lot examples of people not fitting the Holywood profile of what a beautiful Person looks like. They do not represent the vast majority of People. So go ................ yourselves. ( Fill the blank with what ever word you want to put there. It really is up to you be creative)  Here is to real people.

Glad

I am very Glad and Happy if you are able to live your Life as you want or see fit. I would never want to impose what I am going through on anyone else. Just as Much as I would and am Glad you should then spare a thought for all of us that are stuck in the Closet. it always easier just concentrating on your self and the Things your going through. Its just that more difficult to acknowledge others and not to pay Lip Service.
Actions really do speak louder than words. It would be more appropriate to lend a hand to some one going through difficult times than just telling them you sympathize with them and leave it at that.

Feeling

Dont you ever get the Feeling that even if your trying to make yourself Understood that your being Misunderstood. Its almost like the other Person hears something Completely different to that which you said. I don't really know what causes this. You can be really Genuine and Sincere in your Comments. Yet they can still be misinterpreted. Yikes say something!!!!!!

In the Mall

So I have just come back from running around at the Mall. Something struck which has happened before a number of times. It was simply that a lot of Females aren't really feeling themselves. What I mean about is that they are just slouching around like if they were just cleaning the house. They could be running around in lingerie and it would not make a difference. I can understands Mothers since their Kids run them ragged. yet the rest really have no excuse. I suppose its because their life's are very Mundane and Grey. Well who really Knows what needs to be done for people to feel sexy.

Watching

I have so many labels that sometimes I am not sure which ones to use. So i make another One. That just adds to the long list being created. Eventually all I Will have is a huge list instead of a blog. lol
So I am watching one of the Boys from Androgenetics going through their Life Story. So its interesting seeing what others are going through and where they come from. It always allow us to view the person with a bit more Insight. Rather than just a Talking head.

What Ifs

Who does not live in their head. Going through the What Ifs. What If I had never done that? What If I had a $1 000 000?etc,etc.
it really does begin to cause brain Cramps. Whats worse it never works out the  way you would expect. Life is also not out to get you as well.
I suppose that if our expectations are too unrealistic then we end up being Disappointed and then we only have ourselves to Blame.

YOUR A VICTIM OF YOUR OWN MIND

Flooding

Some one sent me a photo from a time back. The memories that came flooding back were surprising. I know that I was talking about our memories being different to what they were. Yet Photos are a time capsule that captures a Mood, Time, People and Place. So in that way they are a bit different. Well at least I think so.

It Doesnt

I had occasion to be reminded of something in the past. The weird thing it is never really how we remember it. Looking back you can see what the reality was and it never is as it seemed when you look back. Just weirdest thing. As long as we don't make the same mistakes. Thank goodness we become wiser well at least we think we do.lol

Again

Well first off I have discovered that I am going to be having two Three Night Girls Vac this next month. Which has left me excited. Unfortunately there is always the Blue period after that. Because of having to go back to Reality. As to how much longer I can continue this YoYo existence time will only tell. For it takes allot out of a Girl. Still working on how I am going to justify a piercing. I really just want to get my Belly Button pierced. Which they are going to say is a Girls thing. So I was thinking if I gave them a choice. So I want to get either my Eyebrow, Nose, Lip or Belly Button pierced. So the thinking behind this they wouldn't want me to be running around in Public with the Piercing in the open. So the next best thing is the Belly Button. Because No One gets to see it. They call it reverse Psychology. Whether it works is another thing. Hopefully they don't see through the ruse. The other thing is to find the right time to do it. Timing in these matters is important you don't want it blowing up in your face and becoming a whole big Thing.

I Got Myself Started

So i got to thinking again which for a blonde is dangerous occupation. I remember reading about a Tribe that when a child is born do not assign a gender to the child irrespective of what is happening between the legs. Which I have to say is very healthy. On the other hand there are tribes in Africa that circumcise their woman. Which leads to complications one among them is being incontinent. Ok the first one was brilliant we should have a time machine go back to find that person who came up with that and Give them every award we have. Oscar, Grammy, Nobel you name it. Now for the latter person that came up with that ludicrous idea of circumcision of female. That person needs to hunted down and slowly tortured over many days and not allowed to die until they realize what a heinous idea that was. Now what I want to know is. Who are these Noodles that decide to impose all these ridiculous customs, traditions etc on humanity? What were they thinking and even today what are they thinking? Or maybe more importantly are they thinking at all?

I Don't Know

I don't know or I don't know yet how to explain what it is like what we go through. How do you explain to some What is like to dream of something that is not manifest in reality and possibly will never be the same as its in your mind. I suppose that is why allot of Trans Girls are still unhappy after Transition. Because the anticipation in reality is never the same as it is in the mind. Is it unrealistic to dream I think not. For what else would we live for if we did not have hope?

Seriously

Sometimes I think. Once again this can be be a dangerous past time. What would it take for you to be comfortable in your skin as A Trans Person. We all have our fantasies which involves lots of Plastic Surgery. But since not all of us are That rich. What would you be happy with to be able to feel comfortable in the world around you. Forget about the fact of whether your accepted or not. For ultimately the majority of people consider us to be freaks. So why even bother trying to make them happy. For ultimately you go to sleep by yourself every night.

Thinking

So I was thinking. Which can be dangerous.lol. Anyway I was looking for a Trans Logo I could use on Google and I came across a photo of To Trans Girls in Iran. Which Is awesome dangerous But Awesome. I take my hat off to them. My therapist has said that being Trans in America is one of the most dangerous places. Simply even though there are a few places that are accepting and tolerant the rest are in no ways friendly to Trans People. For ultimately America is very conservative. Anyway back to what I was thinking lets say that the process to Transition was a lot easier than it is now. You would have all the access to all the treatments you could desire. With no question of it costing you anything. Then there was no stigma attached and society was completely accepting no prejudice. How many people would still want to Transition? I think that some times when a certain thing has a aura of mystique or even forbidden fruit. Then it seems more desirable. Just thinking.

Mmmmm

So I was thinking which is a very rare thing. lol. When does a women lose there sexuality. For Instance if you think of a granny. When did she cease to be looked at as a sexy woman. What is the ttransition and why. Does she just one day become a matronly figure? Is it by choice? Is it something she willingly participates in? Is it forced upon her by society?