Can't

I have been having a spate of dreams that follow on one form another. Well to a certain degree. Interesting enough is the fact that they are or have the same thing in common and are different in that they don't repeat at all. I am not going to get into the meaning for it could be quite varied as to what they might be pointing at. So there is no need for that. I hope that all of this is making sense. I really just mentioned them because of them being so unusual. Its the first time I have ever had dreams that follow on from each other.
There could be a Trans explanation for them amongst others.

Dreams

So I slept rather late today make that very late woke up at about 1:30. Had some really weird dreams again. These ones were no as seriously weird ones as the ones I had last week. These ones had relatives of mine in them. Which I kinda mind when they pop up in my Dreams. I prefer not to dream of them at all. It's my dream so I should have a say after all. lol. I wish it were that easy to dictate who appears in your Dreams.

Dreaming

So I have just come back from Gym. had a shower then packed some clothes that I had washed. In all of this I was thinking about what I was dreaming about when I was at Gym. And that was shoes. Just thinking what it would be like to walk around in the different types of shoes. Heels, Wedges, pumps ,etc ,etc. I had to be paying attention to what aI was doing. Otherwise I could have hurt myself. Noe the less I was Dreaming on fitting on different shoes. Which I have to say was a pretty damn good dream as far as Dreams go.

Super

So another super Lazy day. Slept most of the time. Had some awesome dreams just cant remember them. lol. Isn't amazing how you can remember them when you wake up and later they are all gone. For me it's always that My dream ends or I wake up just as things are starting to get interesting. I have some dreams that just keep repeating themselves over an over well not the exact Dreams but similar themes. I have two themes that keep repeating themselves. I am not going to tell you them since I don't want you psychoanalyzing me. lol. No sorry I won't.

Fantasy

So because I am closeted and have no chance in ever Coming Out. I have to dream about it. Which happens a lot. Trust me it's one of the things that keep me going. I know it's unrealistic to think the way I do. What if I won the Lotto. Then there I could this and that etc. What if were to Come Out and have enough Money to do Surgery well all the ones I would want. Believe me that would be a lot. So much so that if I did do it no one would recognize me. Cool hey. lol. Well at least I think so. So Dreaming is one way I keep myself Sane and drive Myself insane at the same time. For knowing that it will never happen depresses me.

Tired

Although I had stunning Dreams last night I really did not sleep all that well and so I am now exhausted. I probably wont have a good night tonight since I am now overtired. So I am not my usual self at the moment and therefore am in a bit of Fug. Well more than just a bit I have too say.

Uggghhh

I really had a I don't want to say a nasty Dream this morning. It was definitely different from the norm. It was kinda uuggghhh. It kinda set the tone for the day. Just haven't been able to shake it yet. Hopefully I have something better to dream about tonight.

Fantasy

Keeping The Fantasy alive about when and if and what you would do if you ever come out is enough to drain anyone of energy. So there are definitely aspects that can be related to a Fantasy. I don't think that all but aspects are definitely a fantasy. Stuff that has basis for it in reality. Not to say we don't wish it were the case. I think we are all guilty of this in one way or another. But especially those that are stuck in the closet.

Dreams

Dreams

Well they are back I had a really real dream this morning. The story line was ok not anything to write home about. But the reality of it was so real. If that makes any sense. I have better dreams when it comes to story lines. I feel like I am reviewing a Movie here. Lol

Dreams

So I think My spate of cool dreams has come to an end. I did dream last night but it was nothing like the previous nights. So sorry nothing to report on that front.

Magic

Magic

So the Dream saga's continue. Except this time there was no boogeyman lurking at the bottom of the pool. This one was magical. It was Fantasy one with horses and wizards and witches and more horses etc etc. It's too long for me to transcribe it all (big word Hope I am using it correctly, Lol ) Anyway I remember most of it and it was one just before I woke up this morning. Which I like to extend for the sake of the Dream.

Swimming Pool

So I dreamt I was a Japanese girl last night and I was at a swimming pool. I was being taught how to swim. The only thing is that the pool was really deep and I was fearful of what might be lurking at the bottom of the pool I was told I must swim to the bottom but I tried to and did not succeed. Then I was told that I must swim to the other side and I did not want to. Then the teacher swam with me to the other side which did not make it any better. Ultimately it was not too good a dream but it was made interesting that I was a Girl. Now that was cool.

Vivid

Today well last night I had the most vivid dreams that I have had for a long time. Well as you might have guessed by now that is I love dreaming. Well both types the Sleeping variety and the awake variety. Anyway back to the vivid  They were so real that I remember them even now. They left quite an impression on me. Were they good well kinda they did have an element of bullying in them which I resisted to an extent. Well I was been bullied. I did try to make what ever was bullying go away. Well I had very limited success in doing so. Listen to me ramble on about Dreams as if they were real. Well I have always believed that there is a part based in reality.The rest is your mind trying to process what went on in the day and the last part is the ooohhh wwooowwwee type. Which some people acknowledge and some don't.

I Also Think

I am not 100% sure but I have the feeling that I had some awesome Dreams last Night  It's just this morning I did not remember or maybe it's me remembering the Dreams form the night before. Well Whatever.

Dreams

More

I will however say that I had some really interesting dreams last night and they flowed together instead of me waking up after each one.

Dreaming

Fortunately I am still having these Fab Dreams which makes things just a little bit easier waking up with a fond memory or two. Obviously it fades as all Dreams do. Well at least it's there for me to enjoy even if it's Just a short while.

Dreaming

I had some really interesting Dreams this morning nothing to do with being Trans. Just some cool dreams. I love it when your Dreams leave you with a good feeling. Almost like they are entertaining you. Who knows about all this stuff. I personally think that their are certain things in dreams that are drawn directly from your Day and interpreted by your brain but there is some stuff that is. Where that comes from I have no Ideas and I am not going to venture a guess either.