Press to Delete

I Deleted my Alter Egos Face Book Page today. The Person that People think that I am. You know the one that is not Stasya. I just did not see the need for it anymore. It is quite strange thinking that what if this or that Person really knew me. How would things change?  Then there are those that want to Friend me because of people I know. What do they relay want? maybe I have become Cynical. All the same I have been feeling this way for awhile. I even Fired My Family. Not that i really ever got on with them. I know it sounds harsh. But really I am trying to preserve My Sanity. In some ways I am tired of the Pretense.

Not Enough

I thought I would just explain the not Enough Part of my earlier Post. Its not enough One Night for me to do all the things I would want to do. There is no point in me painting My Nails Only to have to take it off a matter of hours later. The Longer Girls Vac's are better since then I can Let Go properly. I really don't know what I would do if I did not have these breaks every now and then. I almost feel myself waiting in Anticipation to hear when next I get to be alone by Myself. I know that it must seem trivial to focus on just a few days to be able to let your hair down. But believe me you take every moment that you can be yourself with out getting caught as a Gift. I know it sounds trite but it is true.