Loneliness

I suppose this could have been part of the last Post since it does touch on similar themes. (Damn it this dream really has got me going) This obviously does not happen too often. I think the main thing that came out of it is that I really need to find some one I could talk to other than that in a Therapy Session. You see there that Therapist is supposed to listen to me. You see there is no Personal Repoire its a Patient Therapist context. Beyond that there is no Personal Relationship. No Going Out Together  No sharing things. It really is just a One Way Street. My I long for a Flesh and blood Live T Girl to have as a friend. Some one who can Twist my ear and vicer versa.
To Dream The Impossible Dream, To wish upon a far away Star. Ok the second one I made up but it still goes together. Plus It sounds Great, don't you think. Lol that Hurt ooowwwwwwww.

Its A Killer

You will see the same themes running through my Life and others in the Closet and that is the one of Loneliness.It really is a killer. I suppose that most people experience it as well. For some reason or other.Yet for us its more intense. Not being able to express yourself and talk to people as if you were normal. To be who you are and be accepted for who you really are. You will hear this from me every now and then for it really never goes away. Sometimes its just worse. Like now.

Amazing

I don't know if I have said this before. If I have you will have to forgive me. It is amazing how you can be surrounded by people yet be completely alone. Just every now and then I get it that we really are alone in our experience. it sounds a bit Melodramatic or even Depressing. But it really is a reality. Even if your in a bed with someone you really go to sleep alone and wake up alone. Maybe I am crazy but that's how I feel every now and then.

Naive

You would think that being part of a Fringe Society would necessarily automatically mean that all those in the same boat as it where.Would band together. Well no unfortunately not. Just as much that you would think that all those in your grouping would be upstanding citizens. Then your bubble gets popped. For certainly People are People no matter their Orientation, Religion, Culture etc. I think it just comes down to hopefulness. You just wish for a change that you could have some to rely on as reliable as you are. But that would be a false expectation. How naive we can be sometimes.