Ok

So in the next couple of weeks everything will be back to Normal as if the Festive Season never happened. Next week I will be seeing My Doctor and starting that whole rigmarole all over. I will have to wait till the end of the month to hear from My Therapist. So Yeah.

Change

So every now and then you have to got through change. Which for most of the time is that which you cannot avoid. So the person who lived next to us is moving and there is someone New coming. The only thing is we dont know who that Person is. So this should be interesting. Nothing like a Change to shake things Up. Anyway I saw this really cute sticker today. it was of A baby wrapped in a blanket that had the LGBT Colours on it. Above it had written Born This Way. Cool Hey.

Again

So I am back to normal again. Not that I was very different during My Girls Vac. I am pretty much wearing G Strings when ever I get a chance. Also when there is no chance of getting caught. I have painted my toe nails with a nail strengthener which is transparent. I tried to get the Matt one. But apparently its no longer made. So I got the shiny one. just got to keep mt toes covers with socks pretty much all the time.

So Yes

So it has been strange getting back into the routine of things. Its weird for I almost feel that something has changed. I am not too sure what it is yet. I just have a feeling that something is different. It will probably take awhile. I will figure it out.

As Time Goes By

So as you well know by now. That I was wearing my Girls get up when I had Girls Vac's. Well that is changing slowly  I am finding ways to wear as much as  I can without getting caught during the week. Obviously I have to hide the stuff so that I can wash it when no ones around. I also thinking of getting a Clear Matt Nail Polish for my toes to see how that goes and if it is not that visible I will put it on my Finger nail. Well lets see how that goes.

Cool

So I got it going again. Cool. Being thinking a lot about the differences between trans Girls and Women. Now lets say A Trans Girl gets all the necessary things done like gets rid of all the unwanted fur. Then she starts on a course of Hormones and then begins to develop Boobs. Then if she has money she has Facial Feminising done and a couple of other procedures to help the whole package to come together. Then here comes the kicker She does not Have the Male Genitalia removed and converted. Now we have trans Girl No 2. She goes through all the same processes and then has her Male Genitalia converted into Female Genitalia. Here comes the question Who is Trans and Who is not. And if the one is not Trans then what is She?

Ok

Ok I am feeling allot like myself now. Well the non sick part of me. Thank goodness the visit to the Dentist worked. Which I have to say was bloody expensive. I am saying goodbye to someone I have come to know this weekend they are returning to their country of origin. It always amazes me how people float in and out of your life. I never pretend that the relationship will last longer than it does while they are around. Since we all move on.It is very rarely that you continue with a relationship afterward especially when the  relationship is along distant one. Even with my Sister I notice that as the years progress we are drifting further and further apart. As for my Therapist hasn't gotten back to me yet. lol.

Back to The Status Quo

I have been trying to entertain the thought of being in another body other that my present one. for I suffer the same fate that allot of Trans Girls do. That being the inner not matching the outer. So that when you happen to look in the mirror you jump from fright.Saying is that me. So in large part for my own experience. I have a disconnect with my body. I literally don't see myself in my body or my body not belonging to me. I do realize however that it is a vehicle for my current State and like all vehicles needs to maintained. But I still do not Identify with it at all.
The Status Quo issue is the one of feeling that I need to be entertaining People. Where as this is a very personal Journey for me. Even though I don't express to much about my particulars. I am able to write down in Obtuse  my thoughts. Which acts as an Outlet for me. Dr Prescribed.

Says who.

We all are asked to prescribe to this sense of Normalcy that is prescribed to us. Who is to say that just because the Majority think its correct that it is correct. Society can be quite prescriptive. Like you have to go through specific things before they will acknowledge that you are Trans. There is even tests f or that you have to pass. We fall under GID Gender Identity Disorder amongst other Clinical terms. Firstly who says its a Disorder. I could go on and on.