Normal

For the moment I am beginning to isolate myself. Well it's because I am depressed except it's getting quite bad. Since now I have no friends what so ever. I have even fired my Family. Well that's another story all together. So I have successfully chased everyone away. I sometimes feel that relationships are an absolute farce especially if you can't be yourself. For in my case there is no one I can trust to come out to. I would absolutely love to have someone I can speak to with having the fear of them Outing me. This is a luxury. Well I almost think that I would rather not have friends that know me superficially. There is nothing worse than having friends that are shallow. you know what I mean it never goes anywhere.

One

I was totally shocked to find out that someone wanted to make friends with me on Facebook. It is under my name. Which of course is Stasya Doll which is my chosen name. I am not at all active on My Facebook Account so I was a little bit surprised. The only reason why I keep it going is if someone from my past wants to get hold of me. And there are only three of them. They do have my email as well. Yet I still keep my Facebook going. When time goes on you lose contact with people for what ever reason. Maybe they move on and become busy. But I am always here and never change my Email or My Facebook. So through those two I am contactable. Well apart from My Blog.lol

Tired

So yesterday a friend of the Family had a Birthday Bash. Hence the fact I never posted. Food was good as well as all the rest. Just feeling a bit tired. Kinda like Jet Lag where your Body has not caught up with your Mind.

Mmmmm Ok

If you have a Friend that you can tell them just about anything then your Lucky. if not then really you have to become your own Best Friend. If Your in the Closet then you cant afford to tell anyone what is going on because your never sure if the Person is going to Out you. If you have someone that you trust with your Life then you should hold on to them. Ultimately its down to you. But if your hard on yourself or Self Critical then what chance do you have becoming your own Best Friend?