Had To

Since all My Red had been finished by yours truly. I had to go and get some more. Just before Gym I went and got myself 4 bottles of wine. Fortunately they had a special on the one type of wine I drink. So I got me some. I will pour myself a glass or 5 later when I hit my time for drinking. lol. A Girl has to have Libations when it comes to the weekend. When I have saved enough I will get some Vodka. Maybe some Rum I will see what mood I am in when I go. It will still be awhile before I can go.

Red

So I have pored Myself a Glass of Red Wine. I know it's still early in the afternoon. I just felt like some wine. And I am not one to say no to a good glass of wine. No Matter the time of the day. I actually like beer in the morning since its so refreshing. lol. I suppose next I will have to go to AA after I become an Alcoholic. I am sure I have tried to justify my drinking before none the less I really only drink on the weekends apart from today.

My

I have had to curtail my drinking a bit since I am flat broke and will be for the foreseeable future. I just don't have the money to go out and buy stuff. Well there is not a Me Time coming up any time soon so there's that. I am not sad about it was fun while it lasted. Can't always have what you want. Sounds like a song to me. lol.

I Wish

I really wish I could be drinking round about now. I just feel like it. Sometimes I just get into the space where I need to let go. I know it sounds bad that I need alcohol to feel myself. Yes I know but it works for me. I don't have to get smashed just a little tipsy. So it's not like I have to drink bottles or copious amounts of alcohol to achieve the effect. For a moment I thought it was Friday. Which I have to say is weird. It's not like I am wishing time away. It really did feel like Friday. I don't know if you have ever felt that way.

Sure Did

I managed to get some Red Wine for My Me Time which stars tomorrow. For those that don't know me. Me Time is when I get left alone and then I am able to do what want. I really used to party it up but have settled down. Plus I am kinda broke at the moment and can not get what I would really like to get which is either Tequila or Vodka. In fact I feel like some Tequila. The Gold one. Feeling rich yeah right. Not gonna happen so it will have to be a eager supply of Red Wine. Aaaahhh. What can I do.

Yes

So I have a Me Time coming up. So I have to get ready for it. I don't have a lot of money. So I am only going to be able to get Red Wine this time around. So the coming weekend is mine as well as Monday and Tuesday. I am just not too sure if I am going to be able to get out of this funk. If not then I am going to have a very quite Me Time. I cant imagine that I will be ok by this weekend. So it will probably be quite. Sleeping and watching Vlogs and drinking and a little posting as well. Don't expect too much from me. I just wish I could get something stronger so that I could get wasted. The Red Wine isn't even enough to make me drunk.

I Am

So at the moment I am having a glass of red wine since I could not post this weekend . I am having a little week end Drinky Poo. lol. Just a little saying lol. No its quite innocent and nothing should be read into it.

Hectic

Well I am tanking Back the Red. (That being Red Wine) Yes I actually snuck out today and went and got wine. I think that I need to explain something. The wine I get is really cheap they are normally on sale as opposed to Vodka which is hardly ever on sale and is expensive. I can mange a couple of bottles of Red. But hardly ever a bottle of Vodka. That is the main reason why I buy Red Wine as opposed to the strong stuff. plus Red Wine is not that bad. Can't stand the white wine its too sweet. Listening to Depeche Mode's "Suffer Well". So that's the soundtrack for this post. If you don't know them look them up. I love Music and just about everything I do relates back to Music especially when I am drinking.

Just

I just had a glass of Red Wine. I am posting and I was like I want a drink. Here we go again. I think posting makes me thirsty. Not in the conventional sense. I mean for Alcohol. I remember when I use to go onto the Forums there was this one Girl that was always drinking Vod and Orenge. (In other words Vodka and Orange juice) Which makes me thirsty just thinking of it. Unfortunately I drank all my Vodka sometime ago and I am poor at the moment for I haven't received money for awhile now. So I will have to make a plan and see if I can get more money to buy Vodka. Most of the time I spend all my money on booze. I sound like an Alcoholic. The only way I feel I can really be myself is when I have Me Time and drink at the same time. I will sneak a drink in every now and then. Don't forget that I am on Hectic anti Depression Meds amongst others. So most of the time if not all the time I do not feel myself. So the only thing that allows me to feel myself is when I booze. Which in of itself seems to be strange but it works. I also stop feeling numb.

Red Is Go

So I snuck out today and went and got some Red. (Red Wine for those that are new) lol. No it it not code for something else. I cant imagine what but none the less. So I have a glass of the Red at the moment I am not going to have any more its just to celebrate the fact that I do have. lol Any reason to have a glass of wine yeah.

No Red

I felt like a drink except I am all out of Red. So I snuck into the fridge and got out the white wine bottle used for cooking. lol. Not exactly my taste, its one of those dry white wines. yuck with a capital Y. Anyway that's all I could get my hands on. So it will have to suffice. White Wine and Placebo never thought I would see the day. lol.

Red

So the Red is flowing (Red Wine) it could also be Vod (Vodka) but I am fresh out. No Vod today. I will have to go but some just the finances are a bit tight at the moment. Will have to wait until I get some more. Either that or save up. Which ever comes first/