Eeeek

I was thinking whether I should tell this story or not. I have my reasons not to. lol Anyway here goes I came back from Gym and started a load of laundry and then went for a shower. So I have my Shower blissfully unaware. Then I finish up and begin to step out of the shower and as I turn I see this giant spider on the glass door of the shower. I got such a fright. I can't tell you how much I was freaked out. So my immediate response was to take off my Birkenstock and swat the spider. Even though I killed it first time it left me with the Heebs. I was so taken back that it took me awhile to get over it. OMG. lol

The Red

It flows which is a good thing. Sometime I look forward to the weekends it really depends as to what is happening. I think that this weekend will be a little different to rest. For some times it's just a bust. Nothing worse just having Telly to watch. Probably get a Dvd to watch tonight. Listening to Placebo at the moment "Without You I'm Nothing" featuring David Bowie an awesome song if there ever was one. I don't know if you know this about me but I love music. It makes up a soundtrack of my life. It is more than just music to me.

It Continues

So sorry I just cant seem to get out of this Fug that I am in. Which is the weirdest thing is that I am Depressed even though I am on Medication. Go figure. Really just the strangest thing. Think of this Blog as something to keep me sane while going through all these Emotions. I don't even have to be on Hormones to go through Mood swings. I get to do that all by myself.

Motivation

For the moment I have no Motivation to do anything which is as a result of the Meds. Then again what drives your Motivation is important as well. Why are you motivated to do something. What do you hope to accomplish by doing something specific. There is an old saying that you must "Count the Cost". In other words is it worth your while to do it, do you have what it takes to do it and will and do you know what the end result should be. We cant always be too sure of the outcome. It like going to the Salon for a hair Cut. can you afford it no 1. The hairstyle that you have in mind will it really suit your face type no 2. Can the hairdresser cut that style exactly as its in the picture no 3. So finished product are you happy ( Well not always). I can think of so many examples of this type of situation. And the most important question is WHY. Why are you doing it? What do you hope to get out of it. So the hairdresser screws it up or the style makes your face look fat etc, etc so on and so forth. Then What? To put another way is it worth your while to go through all the agony? There we go Short and Sweet.

No Not at All

Believe when I say that I am no Angel at all. I don't pretend to be one either. Not that I am a Fiend or Psychopath. I have my naughty tendencies. So withe that in mind don't be such a prude by judging others or what and how they do it or what ever. As long as they not hurting themselves or anyone else for that matter . Then its cool.