Hee heee

So I go to the Doctor. my results are in but the Doctor is away on Holiday. lol. Now that's too funny. Well at least I think so. So the Doc will only be back next week sometime. For the moment I am thinking about what is it about women that are stunning that we want to be like. Well certainly no one wants to look like a hag. Well that's my impression. Or is it a societal thing. Just as much as

"Chanel creative director/Victorian spinster Karl Lagerfeld went and did it anyway this week, calling out 21 hitmaker Adele in the pages of U.K. Metro. “She is a little too fat,” he wrote, “but she has a beautiful face and a divine voice.”"
By Leah Collins
National Post.com


I personally think she is stunning on so many levels like Beth Ditto for example. Go figure!!!!!!!

Check Up

So I go the Doctor today to fins out if My Liver is handling all my Meds. This is one thing that Girl can not get past and that is dealing with Doctors on a constant basis. I think that GID must be one of the most expensive Diagnosis's. Since it just never ends. We see a whole barrage of Specialists. If only it could be simple. Either that or I win the Lotto. lol.

It Carries On

Well it seems that I am not out of the Wood. In respect to everything going wrong. lol. I suppose that is the best way to react to all these things. I certainly try not take my self too seriously. I have been trying to reach out to this one Girl. It seems that she might come around. its not good to see people that you care for going through a rough patch.

Talking Heads - Stop Making Sense - PsychoKiller

Music

No Not at All

Believe when I say that I am no Angel at all. I don't pretend to be one either. Not that I am a Fiend or Psychopath. I have my naughty tendencies. So withe that in mind don't be such a prude by judging others or what and how they do it or what ever. As long as they not hurting themselves or anyone else for that matter . Then its cool.

Once in Awhile.

Well once in awhile you have those days where everything and everything goes wrong. And its just one thing after the next. Well it still happening. Hopefully it will be over soon. Otherwise I should just stay in bed and not bother to get up. So I was watching a clip of an interview with Sarina Valentina the other day. Know we all know she is a Transsexual Porn Star but still the Girls is a stunner. I think in my next lifetime I want to look like her.I would put her link on my Blog but I will try to keep this PG as much as possible. Even though Amnesia does push the boundaries a bit. |Still love them both.

Aaaahhh

Some can handle change others cant all dependent on how drastic the change is. My Internet connection went bang yesterday. In times like these it just goes to show how reliant we are on technology. What did we ever do when we only had land-lines?

It Happens

I think that if we keep things on the back burner or bottled up or even try to suppress them for long enough. They will manifest in strange ways. Have you noticed that if there is ever a topic that is not confronted then the tension rears its head in different ways. Little thins all of a sudden become an issue. Where it really is not the little things that are an issue. But the Huge White Elephant sitting in the babies chair in the corner. With its one hand raised as a child would do when wanting to get a Teachers attention.

Mmmmm

So I was thinking which is a very rare thing. lol. When does a women lose there sexuality. For Instance if you think of a granny. When did she cease to be looked at as a sexy woman. What is the ttransition and why. Does she just one day become a matronly figure? Is it by choice? Is it something she willingly participates in? Is it forced upon her by society?

Ok

So its done I am back in the closet. I have started going back to Gym. Which is quite a thing especially after the Festive Season. Well we will try get this body back into shape. Not to say that it was in shape to start off. I don't really do it for the same reason that other people do it. Its more to just preserve my body as I get older. So That  I don't end up looking like a stick when I do eventually get old.

So

So today is my last day and then tonight I am back in the Closet. I really have to stop drinking so much Wine on the Girls Vac. Well it was fun while it lasted. I need to make an appointment to see my Therapist some time early this year. I need to connect with someone Human. This is one of the things that the  computer cant give you. Even if you were to Skype. It is just not the same as being in the same Physical Space.

Yaaah

I was able to go to our version of China Town and get some Frilly things for the Nether region. Which was quite cool. I know the one bunch will fit me just I have to try a new one that I got to day. Unfortunately I will have to wait for my next Girl Vac. Since tonight is my last night before I have to climb back in the closet. At least I was able to relax drink some Vodka. I put some in my Red Wine just for interest sake and it wasn't bad. I got to watch some of the DVDs I like so all in all it wasn't so Bad.

What

What is that we need to feel that we represent the inner self. At least the way you perceive yourself to be. I think even in this is it what box do you want to fit into. For instance Male, Female or a variation in between. Or do you actually want to fit in these given pigeon holes. So some want to be woman and raise children etc. I couldn't see myself doing that. The Domestic Goddess is good for some but not me. Not that there is anything wrong with it. I sincerely think that the bounds of Sexuality and the way we present will alter a lot moving into the future. Not necessarily in the next few years. But definitively further down the line. imagine being able to redesign your body and not in the conventional sense either. We certainly are moving in that direction.Designer babies for instance. Sorry to get all Futurist on you.

Taking Woodstock - You're Security Clip

Cooool

So as I said before I am going to be able to have a break where I can be myself. Well this is it! For the next couple of days I am free to be me. Well as close as I can get to for the moment. So first things First is to doll up this body. So I painted my nails Black. Well because I like Black, nothing wrong with that. Every Girl has her colour. next comes out my dainties. By that I mean thongs etc. Obviously with the disconnect thing. I have to Imagine it was with the body I should or choose to have. if that makes any sense. As before the problem with this is when I Have to return to normal. That is a bit of a let down. I would rather have that, than never being able to come close to expressing myself at all. I Girl must be happy with we can scrounge together in each of our situations.