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Plastic Surgery

I have been watching an Interview done with Pete Burns of "Dead or Alive" fame. Simply the discussion was around all the Surgery he has had done. Which has gone bit too far on the Mouth/Lips. In the earlier cosmetics Surgeries he looks fab. Its just that now his lips look like a Trout's lips. If you can call it that.

For us its just a matter of trying to get Our Faces done too look more Feminine. So dependent on how the person looks will determine how much surgery needs to be done. Obviously we are not looking to have that Plastic look. When someone has had too much Surgery done. Its more of a natural look to fit in rather than to stand out.

I personally would want quite a bit to be done to the extent that no one would recognize me. Well I would need it. Plus I am not some one that would want to go Stealth. I would want to celebrate that I am Trans. I am not and never will be ashamed or apologetic too the extent that I would want hide amongst the Masses  Obviously I cant do it now and most probably will never be able to. Since my Closetedness ( I invented this term lol)  is one because of the circumstances I find myself in wont allow for it.

If your considering go under the Knife please do a lot of research on the Dr you have chosen. If a miracle would happen. I know of two Surgeons possibly three that I would go to. Simply because or referrals and I have seen the work of one of them. The rest by reputation amongst T girls wold over.

Just a Bit

So I gained One and half over the weekend. So it was a little of a bummer. So hopefully I will be able to ditch it this week and get back to what I was. Still got a way until I get to my goal weight.

Almost

For a moment there was a hic up with my net connection. I was not sure how long it was going to take before it was operational. Especially since I was not able to post today yet. So I was just a little bit concerned. Fortunately it came back on. Well I wouldn't have been able to post this had it not. lol

Meds

Saw the Doctor again today. My Meds were increased just two weeks. Well lets see if it makes any difference.

On My Mind

I have had Vanessa on my mind a lot. She is the one that went to Mexico for the surgery. She is the one that made her money through Prostitution, Because she could not afford it any other way. A fair number of Trans Girls resort to Prostitution to exist and to be able to afford whatever. Society is not that accepting of T Girls. Its such a pity. I would really like it to be that all of T Girls would have access to Facilities and Health Care. So at least they don't have to go some dodgy Mexican surgeon to have stuff done.

Must

I must get My Tattoo on My back finished  Been procrastinating for awhile. Then again it might take me awhile longer to get done. Well we shall see what happens. I am not holding my breath. Its been awhile since I saw my Tattoo Artist. She is really Fab. Like a little cute Pixie. might need to just pop into say Hi.

Yesterday

Sorry to say. I did not get up to any mischief last night. In fact I went to bed early. I Love My Bed. Did watch a little bit of Telly. Had the one show of John Galliano. Some of the dresses where really Fab. Had a little Red wine and a cold pasta salad for supper. All in all a very quite night for Me.

Today

So far its just like any other day. Well that's Me time until sometime tonight. The longer ones work out a lot better. Since there is more time for me to do what I want. Well that goes without saying. Watching the fourth part of the 20/20 documentary. I don't know if I have dealt with this before. A number of the T Girls have to resort to Prostitution to support themselves and their Transition  GID is Probably one of the most costly diagnoses since there is so much that needs to be done. The Hormones is a lifetime commitment. At best its heartbreaking to see T Girls going through such extreme ways to get to Transition. There really has to be a better way.

Good News

So I saw the Therapist today. I was told by the Therapist that it will One and a Half years before moving on. It makes it easier then since the Sessions can flow better. As opposed to just a few sessions and then Nothing. its important to find a Therapist that will be with you for the long haul. The Sessions are more beneficial since you don't have to keep going through the same thing over and over.

Back

So I just got back. Sneaked off to a bottle store to get some more Red Wine. because I am having a Me Day tomorrow  Unfortunately it does not include a night away. Which would have been cool.

Tomorrow

So Tomorrow I am seeing my Therapist. it turns out that I see the Therapist once a week. I am particulary feeling Fragile at the moment. Just waiting for confirmation to see if this Therapist is going to stay at this Hospital. if not it means going through the same Process again. Which for the most part is Laborious. it gets a bit much when you have to repeat your history over and over again. Therapy takes a long time before you notice any benefits. Also remembering that you will have to get one of them to sign off on your SRS if you ever happen to go that far.

Lucky

These are the Lucky ones. Especially if your family is behind you and are supportive. For the rest of us its the usual of nerve racking either being stuck in the Closet or wanting to come out. The Coming Out is the harder since you have no idea as to how people are going to react. Most the time you are surprised by who is supportive and who is not. Well its the old story repeated time and time again. If you listen to the stories of those that have Come Out. There is a common Thread that runs through them.

Boys will be girls 20/20 Documentary Part 1 of 4

Boys will be girls 20/20 Documentary Part 2 of 4