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Thurs

What unusual thing it was for me to sleep late. lol. Yes I slept late got up and had to wait for someone to take furniture away so it could be repaired and sprayed a different colour. They came a bit late which was ok since I was not in a rush to go. Then I went to two different grocery stores each in the opposite direction to get apple boxes. At the one mall I went and got some wine since I am out and had none for today or the weekend. Watched the usual Telly.

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Again

So slept late again. Which is a daily thing to do for me. I really am demotivated and just generally slack. The move isn't exactly helping matters either. I am really not in the mood to move. It is such a shlep to have box so much junk. Its been eight years since I last moved. I can tell you this much after this move I wont be moving any time soon at all. You would be surprised as to the amount of stuff you collect. The best way to find out is move then you will find out soon enough how Junk you have collected.

TRANSGENDER Q&A - Part 1

Gay Grammy Drama!!

Mini

Well yesterday I slept really late. I did not have to do anything besides go to my Therapist. So I took the journey to see My Therapist. Therapy this  time was a bit different since I ended up having a breakdown of sorts. I just could not keep it together. So most of the session was spent crying. Being stuck in the Closet will do that to you. It was a good release I would say even though it still does not make it better to be in The Closet.

Macklemore & Ryan Lewis, Mary Lambert & Madonna performing at The Grammy...

TSG268: Is Drag Bad? Flavors of T

Still

I am still having difficulty keeping it together since watching that clip of Coco Peru doing that interview. it touched a chord in me. I can identify so strongly with being In The Closet. It takes a lot to keep it together especially relating to not being able to express myself at all. I some times wonder as to just how much people understand. We say the things and people feel sorry for us but can they really understand is the question. I would answer No a resounding No. Its easier to say they are sorry that its the situation. Then again its not there fault that they don't understand. I could go on and on about this but I wont.

Mon

So slept late and I mean late. Got up and went to a Grocery store where I had made arrangements for them to phone me when they had Apple Boxes. Except they hadn't phoned me. So I went anyway. Fortunately there was quite a few so got as many as I could which was 12. I should have gone back for more but then again I should have done a lot of things. lol. I remember do washing but when on Monday. Anyhow it was done.

TSG 266.265 - two topics, too cute!

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Disney's Frozen "Let It Go" Sequence Performed by Idina Menzel

Sad

I was watching a in depth interview with Coco Peru an American Drag Queen and she said something that made me quite sad. It was to do with feeling more closeted as she moved away from an event she went to and the further she got from the vent the more closeted she felt like. I think it was a Gay Pride Festival that she went to. I suppose the same can be said of me and my Therapy Sessions. When I leave its like I am back in the Closet. Which makes me sad so I could identify with her. I suppose the difference is that she eventually came out and I am still stuck. Never the less it struck a chord with me.

Another

So its Monday again. This weekend on Friday I watched The Worlds End, which is a British movie which was funny in parts but takes a real odd turn. I suppose it would not be odd had I read the back before hand. lol. It was ok in as far as entertainment goes.
Saturday went out for Breakfast and watched a stand up comedy on dvd of a local chap. You would not know him. So no point in mentioning then. Sunday went out for Breakfast as well. Which I have to say was pretty good in as far as Breakfasts go. Just watched some old movie of Johnny Depp's. It was ok you could see it was outdated. Funny that.

TSG 266 - Gender Identity

More

So I had to wait for an electrician to come out to the place to do an inspection. He was supposed to give me a certificate when finished but had forgotten to bring it. So I had to wait for someone to drop it off in this time I could have gone to Gym. Anyway when I received it I went to the Grocery store where I had made arrangements for me to pick up Apple Boxes every Thursday. I got about 9 boxes which is not bad. I always hope for more but am thankful for what I can get. (Yeah Right lol) So went back to my place and had a nap. watched Jeremiah, Fringe, Bones and the Wendy Williams show.

So

I was just wondering how cis woman must perceive Trans Women to be like especially early in Transition when everything is still new and the T Girl is ecstatic to buy their first bra or something like that. They must think we are completely bonkers especially when they have been through it already and it is just the normal thing to do. The T Girl glories in everything that is women and the cis women are like whatever. It must be so strange. I was thinking about this after watching Follow Me To The Mall vlog and was watching the cis girl. It just seemed so weird to watch her watch the T Girl doing her thing. Well maybe its just me who knows.

Follow me to the mall! - MTF

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Didn't

So I did not really do much yesterday besides sleep it was just one of those days where It kinda was the only thing to do. I know it sounds rather sad which it is. I did however do some packing not much almost finished the shelves of books that I have now. Now on to the cupboards of books that I have not read yet to be packed away. Yes I have a lot of books. I packed 16 apple boxes just from the shelves which is a hell of a lot of books. I cont imagine there will be too many to pack but we will see.
I did however watch Jeremiah and Fringe and Bones and America has got Talent last night which was ok. I know its a bit behind but that's ok what can you do. I do have series that I can watch but keep that for the weekend.

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Boxes

Packed a few more boxes. I hate packing so its going slowly. I just wish the move was over and was settled in. Its going to be a long wait for that to happen. As I think I did say that would be renovating so it will take awhile before will be up to scratch again.

I Did

So yesterday I slept in which I am so good at doing then I took a trip to go see my Therapist. I have to say that the Therapy session was exclusively on My Transness with maybe a few other things thrown in for good measure. It was a good session no matter how you look at it. I will say this that we did speak about Drag Queens quite a bit. That's all I am going to say you will have to figure out what the connection is.

TSG266: Didn't Choose MY Gender

Ok

It worked fancy that. Anyway Yesterday I ran around looking for apple boxes. Went to two places got more from the first than the second one. I am hoping to get some more this week . Why you say I am moving at the second week of Feb. Which is going to be a real pain for I might not be able to post for a couple of months. I know it will be real pain for me. Just don't think I am avoiding posting its just with renovations comes chaos. I will have to have a hardline installed amongst all the other hundred of other things. I warning you in advance so you know why I disappear for a very long while.

Damn

The Internet is really slow at the moment. I am even lucky to have made it so far that is to write a post lets see if it will post.

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Was

I was watching MSNBC and this segment came up on this Trans Girl who had just been released from prison for an incident that happened when she was confronted by some people. Unfortunately I could not watch the whole thing since I just caught some of it when flipping through the channels. I could not stay on the channel for obvious reasons.  Which was such a pity for I am sure they dealt with a lot of Trans Issues. it would have been interesting to stay tuned. Well that is my life. Always making sure that no one catches me doing the obvious. Fortunately no one was around but I was not going to take the chance at all of being bust watching it.

Well

Its Monday again. Yes we know that time flies.  Friday night watched White House Down on dvd which was ok. Saturday went out for breakfast and in the evening watched Paranoia on dvd. Then on Sunday went out for lunch and watched Wolverine on dvd. So in short that was my weekend.

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Still

I am still feeling My Transness more so than normal . I put it down to thinking in terms of being gay. I know it makes no sense. It helps if I think of myself as a screaming queen and that way I am loser to being Trans since Gay People are more accepted. Not that I can act in that way it would draw too much attention. So it's all in the head. This being an exercise to make it easier in being in the Closet.

Down

So I got my ugly butt down to the Gym today. Which is a miracle all of in its self. What really does not help is all the cis girls running around in their tight hugging outfits. It can only make a Girl jealous at the end of the day. It is always the same for me. I try to tune it out since it only makes me feel ........ . You can fill in the blank With a not so nice word. lol Well it could be nice word dependent on you

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Feeling

I have been feeling a lot more Trans since I came back. I know it sounds odd but it is. When I was away I was so busy with what I was doing that I did not have time to try and process where I was in regards to My Transness. Some times you get so involved with what your doing you forget about your self. I suppose the next couple of months will be the same especially with the move and everything that goes with that. Hopefully I will be able to get back to myself once everything has settled. Another thing is I don't know if the new place has a hardline at all. So that will take a while to get that up and going. I know its a huge pain in the butt.

Out

I am moving places at the beginning of Feb. Which I only found out today. Which sucks. Since it does not give much time to pack. I knew I had to move but I was thinking the beginning of March instead of Feb. So Sadly that not true. Anyway I will have to get cracking.

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Therapist

So yesterday I went and saw My Therapist. More importantly I missed my Psychiatrist appointment. I mixed up the dates. So that was a bit silly on my part. I will have to apologize next time I see My Psychiatrist. Any way I had my Therapy session which went quite well. Dealt with a few Trans issues but mostly just normal issues. Which was ok. All in all it was great to see my Therapist which it has been over a month since I last Saw My Therapist.

TSG265: Does Transition End? Not Likely...

Can't

I have been having a spate of dreams that follow on one form another. Well to a certain degree. Interesting enough is the fact that they are or have the same thing in common and are different in that they don't repeat at all. I am not going to get into the meaning for it could be quite varied as to what they might be pointing at. So there is no need for that. I hope that all of this is making sense. I really just mentioned them because of them being so unusual. Its the first time I have ever had dreams that follow on from each other.
There could be a Trans explanation for them amongst others.

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Well

It is Monday again time flew I have to say. This weekend I got to see The Hobbit part two. Which was awesome. Went out for dinner afterwards. Had a gourmet hamburger. So it was a nice change from the normal telly watching. Also went out for breakfast on Sunday morning. The rest of the time was spent either in the Mall or back at the place. So all in all it was an good weekend.

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Plastic

I was dreaming about winning the Lotto and what I would do with the money. I was thinking around 54 would be enough for me. If it were more then I would not say no. It would be a bonus. Anyhow I was thinking of all the different surgeries I would  FFS. Get my Adams Apple shaved. I would get a tummy tuck maybe even a bigger butt. lol. The most extensive one would be the FFS. I would have to do it in stages to get the result I would want to get. You would definitely not recognize me after all of it. Of course I would do the electrolysis thing. Its not Plastic Surgery but still an integral part of the whole thing. A Girl can only dream. Heres to winning The Lotto. lol

Late

So I slept late yesterday. ( I suffer from Depression if you did not know. So that will explain a lot of things.) I also lack motivation which I say is because of the pills. I know some would disagree with me. Either way it does make a difference. Then I decide to go for a walk since. I was so sedentary when I was away. That now I am totally unfit. I had in mind to got to a certain distance and then walk the same route back. I got to about a quarter of the distance and had to turn back since I was finished. On the way back I had to stop a number of times just so that I could recover. Well now you will know just how unfit I am. I was supposed to go to gym e yesterday but decide to do the walk instead. Which turned out not so well. I can laugh about it know but at the time it was horrific.
Then in the evening watched Jeremiah and Stargate Universe. I normally read my book on Wed and Thurs. but that too has fallen to the wayside for the moment I hope to get back into at sometime.

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So

I did not do anything spectacular yesterday. Beside doing the linen and the whites. I packed the Linen away yesterday and the whites today. From now I will be including accounts of what I do. They are going to be really boring. But still It's like having a diary.
After having done the day I watched Jeremiah and Star Gate Universe and Bones.

I Can't

I posted a Vlog yesterday were Joules talks about two Gay Men beaten to death she did put a link to the actual video. I personally did not watch the video. I'm not saying that if you did watch it that there is anything wrong. I just cant watch something like that its too graphic and not something that I want stuck in my head.
Never the less its horrific and there are places in the world were it's really dangerous for the LGBT Family. I am not going to go into all the places for you well know some of them. like Iraq etc. I know the Russians are having a hard time of it and its well publicized. I am not too sure how to show support for these LGBT Families.

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Two Gay Men Beaten To Death

Well

I should have gone to Gym today but I really was not in the right space to go to Gym. Lets just say I was Lazy. So lets call it as we see it.
I did not figure out why I was feeling weird at all. But I do feel ok now . Well sort of not as bad as yesterday. It could have just been that I was depressed. Any how I went shopping to get some electrical plugs as well as essentials which did me some good to get out of the house. So at least I will be seeing My Therapist next week on Tuesday which is something to look forward to. I haven't been able to speak to anyone about Trans issues for about a month now. Which is a long time to go without being exposed to Trans issues.Counting obviously being on the net as well.

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Feeling

I feel weird I just cant put my finger on why. I don't know if it is because I have been out of contact with the Trans Family or because I have been out of touch with myself. I do know that it has something to do with being Trans. It is kinda difficult being in the Closet for things get jumbled up and you cant necessarily tell what is going on sometimes. You cant put your finger on why your feeling a specific way. Then again it could just be me. It could just be that I have been sleeping way too much lol. None the less I will get to the bottom of it.
I picked up some weight since I have been away. Which I am not too happy about for I know it's going to be a bitch to get off. Once you got it. It just does not want to go away quietly. Plus I have not been to Gym in December. So I am totally unfit. Which  is another reason to feel weird about.

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No Much

So after having got back and doing some chores around the house. I slept for awhile in the afternoon and then watched some True Blood. Which is a tv series. I can say that I have missed keeping up with all that happens with the Trans Family on You Tube. Its like my daily fix to watch all the Vlogs I follow. So much has changed in these peoples lives in a mere 3 to 4 weeks. I wish I could say the same.

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Back

So a lot has happened. But at least I'm back. I had problems with my Internet connection just before I left last year that's why I was not able to post up until I left. At least I was able to get it sorted out so that by the time I came back it was sorted out. I only got back today and have been back for a couple of hours. So we start another year which really is just another day in as far as the New Years goes. Not really a fan of New Years for me it holds nothing special for me. I have not been able to get on the net until now. Which is a long time. So I'm catching up.