VuLOG: Identity Crisis

Drag Show

I don't know if I have mentioned this before. Well if I have you will have to excuse me. I was told about this place that has Drag Shows. Unfortunately its quite a distance again. So I was thinking that for My next me Time if everything works out. I will try to go to one of the shows. I don't why these things always have to be quite a distance. Then again I know. lol. We live in a very Conservative area and when I say conservative I mean it. Well that pretty much spells that Out. If you know what I mean. Very seldomly will I give Out any personal Info. That's one the first things I was told when going on to the Forums. Do not give Out any personal Info out. Not that I do here anyway. Just every now and then I will give Out Hints. You really have to be on your Toes to catch them.

Just Now

So just now as opposed to now now I will be travelling to see My Therapist. Which I have to say has been 7 weeks since I last saw My Therapist. Long time don't you think? I have so out of it for awhile that I am really not feeling anything about it at the moment. Neither Joy, happiness or anything. I normally look forward to these Sessions. Maybe I have become Apathetic. I will however say that it has been a bit of a stain getting back into the Routine since I was away. Hopefully I will be able to get back into. For the moment I pretty much nonplussed. That's why going away is easier when you do the going its the coming back that is a pain in the ......... (once again you fill in the blank) you know what I mean

Placebo

If there is one Band that I can use to describe myself with. It would be Placebo. There Lead Singer Brian Molko is my all time Fav Lead Singer. For many reasons. Not to mention that he is Androgynous. Which is the way I view Myself for the Time I am  in The Closet. It helps to have some thing that is obtainable while I am Stuck. It might not make sense to you. But it helps me a lot. it does not change the fact that I am Trans.

PLACEBO 'Special Needs'

Fun

Well I am certainly having Fun with My Tumblr Blog. Not to say that I don't have fun with this one. Its just this one is a little more serious than the Other. I don't Post posts on the other one just Sayings and Vlogs. The Vlogs which I ordinarily watch. If there are ones I like then I Post them there. I feel that every now and then I need to repeat myself especially if there New you's. So if you've read this before that is reason for this.

Bliss

Absolute bliss the Workmen have finally left which makes for blissful time in Space. lol. Nothing like a blissful state of Bliss. lol. Oh I am just being silly now.

Aaaahhhhh

We have got workmen in the area again. Which I hate with a passion  Not the People but the bloody noise. its enough to make you wanna Scream. The annoying thing is that you never know when its going to stop. So that is the real irritant beside the noise. So for the moment Screamm. I cant hear myself Think.

Vlogs

Well I think that I have Officially run out of Trans Vlogs for the moment. Unless there is secret channel that I am not aware of. lol.( Obviously it comes down to personal preference) Then again My blog is not about Vlogs at all. I just Post since they give perspective into other T Girls realities. I will however Post other Vlogs to my Tumblr Blog if I find stuff that does not necessarily apply to this one.
http://stasyadoll.tumblr.com/
I subscribe to quite a few Channels. But there is not always something on that I would want to post.

Transitioning

If you ever think of Transitioning. Then you must be prepared to spend a lot of Money. The Hormones is a constant and you will have to take them for life. Plus you need to be monitored when your on Hormones. So that includes Doctors visits. You will also need the Doctor and a Psychologist to sign off on SRS if you ever intend going that route. So you need to see a Psychologist on an ongoing basis. Then there is all the Surgeries like FFS which is Elective so if you already have a Feminine face your blessed. There might be other Surgeries to do if your not happy with your Body in some way. So all in all not a cheap thing to do. Plus beside all of this you still need to be able to support yourself. Talk about a long Journey. I am not trying to dissuade you. I just want you to prepared for all the hurdles you have to take on. So if your up for the Task go for it.

Lea's Facial Feminization Surgery with Dr Bart

FFS

Watching some of the Vlogs with FFS. Unfortunately they aren't very comprehensive. There really isn't before and after. So that you can see if the surgery is effective or not. The other thing is just how much correction they can do. In other words if it only People that are kinda Feminine facially that they can enhance or whether they reconstruct someone that does not look feminine at all. Well I will post one because it has an explanation as to what can happen but unfortunately it does not have "After" part to it. Plus its all in English subtitles. Since Dr Bart is Belgium.

Ladyboy Beauty Queens pt3

Tranny Sessions

So Awesome My Therapist phoned me to day to make a time for me to go. It was a bit of a Surprise but a good one so soon we ill back into Routine  Except this year I am Hoping to change the day that I go to see the Therapist. So all in all good news in as o far as this go. The Highlight of My day. So I will be having My Tranny Sessions . How Awesome is that.
Ok Lets Spell it out yes people know I go to a Therapist but they know that I go there for My Depression. Instead I use these sessions to speak about my being a T Girl. The Therapist is not allowed to tell anyone what goes on in the Sessions. So as far as they concerned I am there for My Depression. So hence Tranny Sessions. My Therapist is the only one that I am able to speak about My issues to.

All the Time

I seriously don't know why it happens. Quite often I think to myself I must post this thought on my Blog and discuss it. Then when it comes to Posting I have forgotten completely about what I wanted to post. lol. its kinda like when you intend doing something and then on the way to do it you remember something and by the time you get to were you wanted to go initially  You have forgotten what it was you intended doing in the first place. This happens to me quite a bit. Not too often but enough to notice That I do it.