Just Now

So just now as opposed to now now I will be travelling to see My Therapist. Which I have to say has been 7 weeks since I last saw My Therapist. Long time don't you think? I have so out of it for awhile that I am really not feeling anything about it at the moment. Neither Joy, happiness or anything. I normally look forward to these Sessions. Maybe I have become Apathetic. I will however say that it has been a bit of a stain getting back into the Routine since I was away. Hopefully I will be able to get back into. For the moment I pretty much nonplussed. That's why going away is easier when you do the going its the coming back that is a pain in the ......... (once again you fill in the blank) you know what I mean