Transition Mistakes

Don't Know

I am kinda tired at the moment I don't know why. Plus I also don't have that much to talk about today. It has just been one of those days. Lets say it's like a Lazy Sunday for me today.

Just

Watching Vlogs at the moment. I did have some hassles with the You Tube player where it kept going that there was an error and must try again later. Which is a real pain in the.... Just remember that I have not watched any since Friday last week. So I have a few that I need to catch up with.

So

It's Monday again. This weekend went quite fast. Did  a bit of running around on the weekend. The usual Mall things. That everyone does. I really don't know what we would do without Malls. Nothing Like Retail Therapy.

Goldfrapp - Rocket

Notice

Please remember that I no longer post on the weekends since it is such a risk for me . I can not be outed. My world will literally come to a halt in a bad way. So please be understanding.

I Was

Last night was a particularly difficult night for me since I was really Depressed so much it made me worry. I haven't been this Depressed this much in awhile. I suppose you can only maintain the equilibrium for so long. I am not to sure if you spell it like that, anyway not Train Smash. I told you if you suppress yourself for so long it will come out when you least expect it to. Well last night was a perfect example of that.

The Red

It flows which is a good thing. Sometime I look forward to the weekends it really depends as to what is happening. I think that this weekend will be a little different to rest. For some times it's just a bust. Nothing worse just having Telly to watch. Probably get a Dvd to watch tonight. Listening to Placebo at the moment "Without You I'm Nothing" featuring David Bowie an awesome song if there ever was one. I don't know if you know this about me but I love music. It makes up a soundtrack of my life. It is more than just music to me.

Dear Drew: questions to consider before coming out as transsexual

I Am

Supposedly I will be having some Me Time in September round about the 14th I think. I was made aware of the dates. I just was not paying too much attention at the time. So I at least know that's coming up. I don't celebrate as much as I used to. I think its just because I have Matured to some degree. Well that's how I explain it to myself. Who knows maybe I have just become more depressed as time has gone by. Where it takes a lot for me to be happy about anything. I really don't know I haven't put that much thought into it at all. So it could be a combination of a couple of things. Either way I don't party as much as I used to do.

Music

If I ever want to get in touch with myself I listen to Music especially Placebo. I know it sounds drastic but its when your feeling out of it you will need something to bring you back from whatever your going through, I am not saying that is a fail safe way of getting rid of whatever your going through. It just brings you around especially if you relate  to the music and lyrics. Well it works for me. You must have something that works for you.

Too Funny

Yesterday I was celebrating the fact that I had so many Vlogs to watch. Now I have hardly any to watch. So go figure from one extreme to the other. I suppose you cant keep everyone happy all the time. Right.

Red Is Go

So I snuck out today and went and got some Red. (Red Wine for those that are new) lol. No it it not code for something else. I cant imagine what but none the less. So I have a glass of the Red at the moment I am not going to have any more its just to celebrate the fact that I do have. lol Any reason to have a glass of wine yeah.

Placebo - For What Its Worth

Love

I think that for the most part being Trans definitely gets you to reconsider a lot. Even who you are attracted to. For it throws everything up into the air. First you have to deal with the fact that Your Trans and the whole Transition road. Then on top of this you discover which part of the spectrum your attracted to and it can come in many forms. Sexuality is fluid and people can identify as many various types on the spectrum. So just as people can so can you. For some its obvious for others its a journey. In all of this there is no right or wrong. You just have to find out what your comfortable with and which suits you. This to can change as well. Now in all of this there is Love. Sometimes we can't help who we fall in Love. It can surprise you in ways you could not begin to imagine. You just have to stay open. Well to some of us all of this is obvious for others its a journey.