Daughter, Youth

Weekend

My weekend was not bad did get out a bit. Ran around one or two malls saw a movie. Nothing really to write home about. I think weekends are a bit weird since I can't post or don't feel comfortable posting. Well you know what I mean. By the time Monday comes around I feel like I have been living another life all together. I really cant describe it since it does feel rather strange. Haven't won the Lotto or anything like that. So my Life is pretty much the same. I think I am being rather philosophical today.

Weird

I suppose I am feeling a bit weird today. I have been sleeping quite a lot today and still feel like sleeping some more. I will how ever say that I did have some awesome Dreams. Which were great while they lasted. Nothing like a good Dream. It's like watching a Tv Series but even better. Any way I just don't feel real today I feel weird. I can't express what I am feeling. I suppose it could be a type of Apathy. I just don't feel like doing much. Yeah there we go I am feeling Apathetic.

Hello

So it's been awhile as per normal. This last couple of days I was battling a really sore tooth Ache. Which was not much fun. Just as mysteriously as it came it disappeared. I wanted to go see my Dentist but when I phoned to go see him at the clinic they told me he is no longer there. The last time I saw him was about a year ago. So now what, there are other Dentists there but I don't know them. It is such an ordeal to find good Medical People like Dr's etc.

20/20 - A Story of Transgender Children

Transgender Tears

I am watching a Documentary I think for the second time. I have posted so many it's hard to tell now which I have or haven't posted before. So I wont post this one for I recognize one of the T Girls in The Documentary and I already know her story. Her name is Jazz and started transitioning at a very young age. Ok I'll post even though I might have before. Any way it gets to me at the very core of me and effects me so that I begin to cry. What more can I do. Except to be a voyeur. \this is something I will never be able to go through and it hits me right at the core.

Gym

Yes I manged to go to the Gym today. I took my Lazy arse to the gym. Even though I really did not want to go. I was able to do the Abs Machine for my neck is ok now. I did not tell you when I went to Gym On Wed may neck was sore so I did not do the Ab Machine for it hurt My Neck and was giving me a headache. So today I was able since My Neck is better.

Eeeek

I was thinking whether I should tell this story or not. I have my reasons not to. lol Anyway here goes I came back from Gym and started a load of laundry and then went for a shower. So I have my Shower blissfully unaware. Then I finish up and begin to step out of the shower and as I turn I see this giant spider on the glass door of the shower. I got such a fright. I can't tell you how much I was freaked out. So my immediate response was to take off my Birkenstock and swat the spider. Even though I killed it first time it left me with the Heebs. I was so taken back that it took me awhile to get over it. OMG. lol

Outside of the Bubble

Queen - I Want To Break Free

Keep

I keep on hearing the song from Queen "I Want To Break Free" and that opening scene with Freddie doing the cleaning dressed as a woman vacuum cleaning the carpet. I just love the song since it means so much to me. Yes the song is not about Trans people but I have it as the theme song for my Life. I will post again for I love the song so much that I can't get enough of it.

Can't

I am so used to doing things a bit differently on My Blog. Like I used to Blog every day until I was almost bust and then had to curtail my Blogging to days that I knew there is not going to be a chance of being bust. So much so I miss not being able to Post everyday for it provides continuity with what I am blogging about. Now it just feels like everything is just random. I really can't explain it much better than saying it feels like My Blog is fractured and is not that whole. I hope this is making sense.

Sleep

I am sleeping a lot at the moment and having been doing so for awhile. I suppose its a combination between depression and having lost interest in the things around me. I really don't know if I am going to be able to snap out of it any time soon. Which is draining me of my motivation as well. For instance I could have gone to gym today but I chose not to. Instead just lay in bed. I think that not being able to do what I would want to is some of the reason I have lost interest in just doing things.

Coming Out as Transgender + Advise

Transgender Student Crowned Homecoming Queen