New One

Was running around at the malls and managed to get a pair of Black pants which is cool. Kinda got too much clothes at the moment. So I am not really looking out for new Clothes. Not that I am really fond of the Colours that are out at the moment.

Surprise

Surprise One my Girlfriends from way back contacted me out of the Blue. Which is really cool to hear from Her. When I last spoke to her she was going through a rough patch. Well needless to say Im ecstatic

So

So I went to see the DR today. They reckon that my new Meds are working for me. Well we will just have to see about that. Since it takes four to six weeks to settle in. Well I will say that they are a lot better than the last regime.

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Sorry

So I went to see my Therapist yesterday but The Therapist was sick. Therefore I really was not able to speak.

Forward

I had my  Meds changed since the last lot were really not working out for me. lets see how things progress going Forward.

Me Thinks

I have been thinking which is allowed every now and then. Being Trans or even Androgynous does not determine your Sexual preferences. Yes the one is a Gender issues as being assigned the wrong gender. the other is aspiring to straddle the fence between the two sexes. Neither neither nor. So you still have to find out who your attracted to. Being Androgynous does not necessarily equate to a specific sexual preference. so hence the Similarities.

Not Surprised

It does not surprise me at all to see how fickle People can be. Really now a days its all about gratifying your wants now. I think as a a society we have become voyeurs living through other People. Whether it be "Reality" or "Stars" etc.

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Love

Just love Joseph's hair. Both the colour especially the colour. Well the combination of the hair and the colour. So stunning. Just wish I had hair like that.

So

Not much happening unfortunately. Just another Cold Day. When people should be in bed or at least next to a warm Heater. Maybe a cup of Hot Chocolate. Sorry just all around boring. Looking forward to My Session with my Therapist this week.

Ok

So I have managed to make an appointment with My Therapist. Still have not heard who My new one is going to be. Not to say that I will stop seeing my Old Therapist.

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Trying

I am trying to make an Appointment to go see my Therapist. No not the new one the. The original Therapist. Hopefully I will see My Therapist next week sometime. You can make your life so small and your surroundings minute. So every now and then you have to reach out. To the only one who knows who you are. Face to face that is. This human contact is vitally important. You cant live in the Closet all by yourself. There needs to be at least one person you can reach out to. Just make sure its someone you can trust.

Sorta

So yes I have been keeping with the Gym thing. I am losing but ever so slowly. At this rate I will achieve my Goal Weight in 2020. lol. Well lets see how it goes. Then again we do have the festive Season coming up. When everyone pigs out. More than likely everything that I have lost will be put on again. So the vicious circle starts again.

No Sense

I think to maintain my Sanity and this is no Joke. For living in the Closet and sneaking around doing various things is taking its toll.So I have come up with a Plan. For arguments sake I am Androgynous from now. Not to say that I stop being Trans. Its just a lot easier dealing with the way I see my self fitting in. It would be a balancing act so not being overtly feminine but not Neanderthal cum cave man. Well I hope this makes sense. Its being Trans but watering down so I can cope. So I don't have to put myself through the ringer for not achieving anything. It really is about being able to bare going forward without have an absolute Melt Down.

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Starts

We all need to express ourselves as people and we find different ways to do that. If you strip all that away all your left with is the Mind. if you take all the Psychical attributes mannerisms etc away. What do you have left. you till have the Mind. So essentially its all left to the mind to keep something alive or Living. Its not hope that we are talking about its about keeping something alive in the deepest recesses of your mind. This is the life of those in the Closet. Thats where it starts and ends.

I Dont

I don't just post music for the sake of Posting music haphazardly It all has meaning for me.

David Bowie - Space Oddity

New

I am still waiting to hear who My New Therapist is going to be. There is a waiting List. Yeah I know. lol. I am just waitnig for a Phone Call. Maybe sometime in the near future I will have to go see My Old Therapist. I will continue to see both of them. well how do you say something and nothing at the same time. That is the dilemma of this blog. Obviously I could pour my heart out but then I stand a chance of being Outed. That is not an Option that will bear any good fruit. It would be disastrous.

Androgyny

Androgyny is the way to go if you're not able to become that which you want to become. Its a very fine line between the two sexes. At least we don't have to throw away the baby with the bath water. Its like if eating Chocolate Cake makes you put on weight. You don't stop eating Chocolate Cake all together. You just have to find a Happy medium. Well at least that is my Opinion.