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Sexuality

Sexuality I probably one of the first things that you deal with when Transitioning. I think the Hormones  has a lot to do with your changing perception. Well I could be wrong here. Never the less I am not talking from experience at all. I just imagine that it is one of the things you have to deal with. I certainly have not made up my mind in regards to who I am attracted. I could be A Sexual for all I know. There is a great chance that that could be true. I see people that are attractive which is normal. It's just I am not attracted to them at all in a sexual way. So that is what leads me to conclude that I could be A Sexual.

Again

So it's weekend again and the week has Flown by so quickly. I had some not so late Beauty Sleep today. Had to get up and do some Chores. Which did not take too long thankfully. I just hate doing chores. I can't imagine that there is anyone who does like doing Chores. Just a reminder that I don't post on the weekends only during the week for obvious reason. I hope every one had a cool time on Thanksgiving.

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Had A Moment

I was just minding my own business thinking about stuff. When a Thought occurred to me about my chosen name that being Stasya. I thought does it really suit me or should I think about changing it to something else. So I was looking at he closing titles of what I was watching on The Telly looking at all the girls names which came up to see if there were any that took my Fancy. I did not see anything then I gots to thinking again and thought maybe my name is not all that bad after all. So I haven't decided to change it.

Too Much

I was sleeping like sleeping beauty today. I had an exceptionally long sleep and could have slept more but decide to get up and come and post to my Blog. I don't think that you can ever get too much sleep. Well that's me at least. My Depression is not as bad as it has been for awhile now which is a good thing I however do get Anxious every now and then. Thank goodness for the tabs I have. If it weren't for them I would not know what to do. Maybe take up drinking. lol

10 000

So its taken awhile but we got there. So My Blog has breached the 10 000 views mark. The last bit was really slow but that's ok. I was just interested to see how long it would take to get to 10 000. My Blog has been up for a couple of years now. lol . Besides the times I have deleted it. So it was not like it reached it overnight.

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Trans

So I am watching a Vlog where the T Girl is talking about Post Op stuff she has to like Dilation. I mean that is the furthest thing from my mind. I also understand that not every T Girl wants to go through the whole Transition thing. Some of quite happy to stop before the SRS thing. I often think of what I would do if I would go all the way or not. First of all you need the money for the op. Forget about all the money you need for Doctors and Hormones and what ever else. Nobody said it would be cheap. So bearing that in mind that is one of the reasons T Girls don't go through with it. Simply because they don't have the money. And I would fall into the later category.

Wondering

I was just thinking about the LGBT community in Russia and how thing are going on there. There really has not been that much news in regards to the struggle our family is having over there. So if any of you do know I thought you could share it with us. Leave a comment and I will post it so others can read it. If not I will try to find out myself.

Well

To say the least. I am doing better than I was yesterday. It's almost as it never happened. It's probably I had a nice long sleep well a lie in today. If I am really stressed then I tend to want to sleep or just lie down. It's the way I cope I suppose. Other people cope in different ways each to their own. I just happen to sleep a lot

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Aaaahhhh

So I have just come back from Therapy. I had to work quite hard this Session. Not as hard as two back. That one was really hard. Today's one was on a different topic all together. I really just feel like going to sleep right now. Yes it was exhausting. I thought I would just lay down for awhile. Yep thts how tired I am. So you will have to excuse me if I don't blog as much as I do normally.

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Dreams

So I slept rather late today make that very late woke up at about 1:30. Had some really weird dreams again. These ones were no as seriously weird ones as the ones I had last week. These ones had relatives of mine in them. Which I kinda mind when they pop up in my Dreams. I prefer not to dream of them at all. It's my dream so I should have a say after all. lol. I wish it were that easy to dictate who appears in your Dreams.

So

This weekend went out twice for Breakfast. The one on Sunday was really scrumptious the other one was ok. I love going out for Breakfast. Anyhow watched the "Lone Ranger" with Johnny Depp. Which was entertaining to say the least. Nothing for the Oscars but still an entertaining one. Went to a couple of Malls. Started watching the first season of "Suits" which is not bad. I think I am up to the seventh episode already. Love watching series when the whole season is available. Nothing like having to wait a week to wee the next episode. This way you can stop when you choose to.

Went

So I went to go see this New Mall that opened not too far from where I live. It was supposedly supposed to be this cool Mall which it turned out to be like every other drab Mall nothing fantastic. Which is such a pity. So walked around for awhile saw all the shops you see in every other Mall. The chain stores which we all know about. I however stopped at this bag shop just looking around and saw this really cute hand bag which I adored. Now obviously I can't bring this to the attention of anybody else. Any way it was and is still cute. None the less that is about as far as it goes.

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Depression

I have to say that My Depression is quite ok at this moment. My Anxiety is manageable to a large degree. Both of these can change at any moment. I am grateful for the moment that I am in an Ok spot at the moment. I could be a lot better but I will take what I can get.

Had To

Since all My Red had been finished by yours truly. I had to go and get some more. Just before Gym I went and got myself 4 bottles of wine. Fortunately they had a special on the one type of wine I drink. So I got me some. I will pour myself a glass or 5 later when I hit my time for drinking. lol. A Girl has to have Libations when it comes to the weekend. When I have saved enough I will get some Vodka. Maybe some Rum I will see what mood I am in when I go. It will still be awhile before I can go.

Dreaming

So I have just come back from Gym. had a shower then packed some clothes that I had washed. In all of this I was thinking about what I was dreaming about when I was at Gym. And that was shoes. Just thinking what it would be like to walk around in the different types of shoes. Heels, Wedges, pumps ,etc ,etc. I had to be paying attention to what aI was doing. Otherwise I could have hurt myself. Noe the less I was Dreaming on fitting on different shoes. Which I have to say was a pretty damn good dream as far as Dreams go.

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Red

So I have pored Myself a Glass of Red Wine. I know it's still early in the afternoon. I just felt like some wine. And I am not one to say no to a good glass of wine. No Matter the time of the day. I actually like beer in the morning since its so refreshing. lol. I suppose next I will have to go to AA after I become an Alcoholic. I am sure I have tried to justify my drinking before none the less I really only drink on the weekends apart from today.

So Much

I am really looking forward to this December as I do every year. I will be away for three weeks of which I will not be able to post unfortunately it is just one of those things. For those who have been following over the years will remember that I do this every year so consider this an early Notice of sorts.

Can't Say

Well today has been a real bust as far getting anything done. I mean constructive since I have spent a large amount of time lying on my Bed either asleep or just lying there. It has been a super lazy day. Tomorrow I am going to have to get up earlier and do some stuff so I thought I would take advantage of the time today just to be Lazy.

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Gym

So I dragged my Lazy arse to Gym today. Which I suppose I am happy about since I saw this honey Blonde Girl which was such a treat not only was her hair Blonde but her skin was a honey blonde tan. Just love dreaming about being these Girls . It.s better than looking at magazines I have to tell you. So anyway I was absolutely Jealous. Well what can a girl do.

Hair

I really wish I could shave my whole body . Unfortunately I cant the only thing I can get away with is my Arm pits and my chest don't ask why it just seems to be acceptable. I just cant stand the hair no matter where it is especially having to shave my face every day is an absolute pain for me. Can't stand it. Wish I could do Laser. Can you imagine. Well if you can't I certainly can. It would be such freedom not having to worry about regrowth etc and every thing that goes with having to shave every day. I wouldn't mind shaving my Body everyday  I don't know why but it does seem such a big deal as the face.

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Thinking

So I got to thinking about how I would dress if I were to Come Out ever. Which we all know won't happen for I am stuck in the closet with no hope of coming out. Yeah that is right. I mention this every now and then just to make sure you remember that.
Anyhow I was thinking as to how I would dress it was an exercise of pure imagination. I think I would have to get some clothes made since I don't see them in the shops ever. yes I would have a very distinct style of dressing. I will go into it at a later stage. Well for one |I would like long black skirts made for me. That's one thing I don't see in the shops ever.

So

I have just come back from Therapy. Today it was a bit lighthearted since then one from the previous week was really hard on me. I just could not stand having two hard Sessions in a row. So at least we covered some ground today and we did touch on Trans issues. Which is always a good thing.

Yesterday

So we had a power failure/ cut yesterday that is why I was not able to post yesterday. So I am back now that is all that matters.

Nails

So My nails were particularly long. Which I love but I have to cut because we don't want people asking why they are so long. So bummer I had to cut them today. I like the French manicure look out of all the nail variety that you get. No that I can manicure them to look like that at all. Since I wouldn't be able to get away with it.

I Don't

I don't want to be A Tranny. Why because I am a Tranny. It sounds weird but its true. I am as opposed to want to be. I have tried to explain to someone before. Even though  I am stuck in the closet I am A Tranny who has not even begun to Transition, What I say is that you don't have to Transition to Be A Tranny at all.
For if you need to transition to be A Tranny then you are not A Tranny. Tranny meaning Transgender. For there are so many different groups claiming the word Tranny like Transvestites etc. Anyway back to being A Tranny. You don't have to do all the stuff to be a Tranny. Same thing goes for the different subsets that find themselves in the Closet. For instance you don't have to come out to be Gay you either are or mot. You can't want to  become Gay. Yo are either Gay or not. It is the same with being Transgender.

Run Around

So I am done running around today. I went to go get My Prescription filled. No these are just some other Meds I take . It's not for my Depression etc. So at least that is done for now. Well for this month. Next time I go it will be December can you believe it. It's just wild how this year has flown. Anyway I then wen to another Mall and picked up 5 bottled of Red Wine in anticipation of the weekend. I will only drink four of them over Friday through to Sunday. So it works out at One and a third bottles a night which is not a lot. Well I mean there are only 4 large glasses of wine in a bottle which is not a lot. Dependent on how large the glass is. Then I went to another Mall and got a can of coke and just sat around for awhile. Then finally went back to the Abode.

Yesterday

I was quite exhausted mentally from the Therapy Session yesterday. It certainly took a lot out of me. So I slept in a bit this morning. Which I think did the trick.

Once Again

I was supposed to go to Gym today but did not go. I had a lot of things to do this morning. So by the time came to go I was so tired I decide not to go. No train smash as far as I am concerned. I will have to pick up on the Gym thing next week. By which time I will have to struggle through the exercises. Which is no fun at all.

Notice

I am not going to be able to post this coming Friday. So consider yourself as being notified. lol. No seriously I won't be able.

Not Much

Today has been one of those days where I have not done much beside going to Therapy and sleeping and you all know why I sleep (Depression)

Therapy

So today I saw my Psychiatrist to do the monthly check up to make sure the Meds are working. Just answer a couple of questions and get the script. Not really that much to the appointment. So really just for the coming Months Meds. Then I saw My Therapist a little while later. They both are in the same region. Today's Therapy was a real eye opener. Also a bit hard on the Self I have to say/ Therapy can get really sore when dealing with your own inner issue. The longer your in Therapy the deeper it goes. So You can't expect a holiday in Therapy Sessions.

Russia's LGBT Community

I watched this Vlog where there was Choral music in the background and where in different cities around the world people were signing large cards in support of the LGBT community in Russia because of the problems they are experiencing because of the government. In the front of the card was written To Russia With Gay Love. It was a very touching Vlog which brought tears to my eyes. Pity I could not post it.

Worried

I am just slightly worried that My Blog is becoming one dimensional now that I can't post Vlogs from You Tube. It's like at the best of times I really don't have that much to say since being in the Closet at the best of times is quite boring. It would be a different story if I was Out and About. Then at least I would have stories to tell. This way it really is the agony of being stuck in the Closet and how I perceive things around  me . Like going to the Gym or Mall. Seeing things and experiencing things. It really does not get better than that I have to say. There might be times when I am feeling depressed and just generally under the weather. Then that is nothing new either is it. Sorry just in one of those reflective moods.

Never

So it's Monday once again. I just love stating the obvious. So the weekend was a bit of running around here there and every where. What with going out to Breakfast both Saturday and Sunday. Some visiting the Malls. Not that I got anything at them. Watched two episodes of The Walking Dead season one on Saturday night. It was ok could become boring if the story line gets repeated and I can't see how it can't. Did got out to do some grocery shopping well that's a shock isn't it. lol

Anyway

This is my last post for this week have a great weekend I will see ya on Monday.

So

So I was at the gym today no surprise there since when I clean The Abode I normally go to Gym afterwards. Anyway there was this one girl that caught my attention. She was wearing those tight pants ans tight shirt. The pants were a dark blue as well as the top. Anyway it smoothed her body out so much that I could not help noticing. So If I was in one of those there would be bulge in the private regions and this is what I was jealous of being able to put something like that and be just as hot. One can only but dream of having such a smooth body.

Blogger

I am really having hassles with Blogger at the moment. It is so Freakin Slow its just unbelievable. I was afraid that I would not be able to post. Since the page was not downloading for me to be able to post. Hopefully the next one does not take as long.

Russia

Spare a Thought for the LGBT community in Russia that are having a rough time of it with the Governments Anti Gay Laws. Just cant imagine what it must be like for them.

Thursday

I just can't believe how fast this week is going. It's Thursday already. I am hoping that this coming weekend will be a good one at least. Not to say that all my weekends are bad. I just need a good one for this last week has been stressful as i have mentioned already.

Struggles

I have to say that each day now is an absolute (I want to say Burden but that is the wrong word) Drag. I just can not seem to snap out of it. My Depression is really taking over. I am have no motivation. I am totally disinterested in just about everything. I really need to find away out of My Depression before it becomes worse. Trust me it can get worse much worse. I probably bring this up every now and then since it is all pervasive. I can't not talk about it since it is such a big part of my life.

Can't

Was a bit Emotional last night. Just could not stop crying. The day had been quite stressful and just too much for me. This really does not happen very often. But I can get a bit emotional. Even movies or Tv can make me emotional dependent on whats on. If it is really sad then I am in trouble. So it was not the Tv that made me cry it was just a stressful day all in all.

As Well

I almost forgot that I went to my therapy Session yesterday. I was so focused on the Tattoo that I forgot. I received some good news. Sorry cant share with you it at least made my day. Just as much as having my Tattoo done. So anyway the Session went well considering I had not seen my Therapist since two weeks ago.

So Sad

So I am watching some really great Vlogs which I cont share with you because of Blogger. I have this one new one where the T Girl is really gorgeous you would never know that she is a T Girl. Well good for her. No seriously what about all those that don't pass. I think they outweigh those that do. It is such a pity that there is no way that they can get Plastic surgery covered by either the government or an Insurance. It really comes down to the life of the T Girl will be dramatically changed if she could pass due to Surgery. Whether that would ever be a consideration I don't know. I do know that I could do with some Surgery myself. For the face that is and maybe a few other spots nothing major. lol

Late

So I got home late yesterday from having my Tattoo done. So much though I was really not in the mood to Post any Posts. So Here I am again sorry for not posting. I know that I don't get to post on weekends so I should post each day of the week. Anyway About a third of my Tattoo is finished. I was hoping that more would be finished by now. Well what can you do. So the part that is finished is looking really great I have to say.

Lonely

I am really feeling a bit lonely being stuck in the Closet. The only space I have for Self expression is when I go for Therapy the Therapist knows that I am Trans but that about it. I used to have Trans Girl who used email me but she has stopped and it has been a very long time since she last emailed me. So really there is no one else. It is really lonely and not having someone to talk about issues and just stuff in general. Yes you can have relationships with ordinary people but its not the same as having someone you relate all your Trans stuff to. You almost become your own best friend. Well you are forced to since there is no on else. I suppose it's all the same for everyone that is stuck in some or other Closet.

Feeling

I have to say that I am feeling some what different about being Trans. Maybe it's just that I have mature in the way that I view myself. Well I feel more mature its not such an adventure its more just the stability that I am experiencing.. So I think that on the timeline I would be past my Puberty and teenager years. Well they say you go through two puberties being Trans. Not hormonaly speaking for myself. I think if I were ever to go on hormones it would be three puberties. Since the one is an emotional puberty not a hormonal one. Sometimes I even feel like a Granny since I view all the really Young ones going through the different Angsts that they go through. I don't know how I would cope were I to come out. One never knows.

Today

I have been a bit of A Sloth today since I stayed in bed for quite awhile. I really just did not feel like getting up at all. So there's that.

Again

So it's Monday again. Well that is stating the obvious. On the weekend went out for Breakfast both on Saturday and Sunday. Did not get any Dvd's but was given the first three seasons of the Walking Dead. It is supposed to be good. I don't know much about the series at all. So I suppose there is only one way to find out. The Internet was tragically slow over the weekend which was a pain in the butt. I was trying to watch My Vlogs and it was just not happening at all. Did get to watch some Yes To The Dress last night which was cool.

I Did

I went to Gym today which was quite normal I have to say there were not many Girls there. I am talking about sis girls not trannys. It would be awesome if there were Trannys there but that is not going to happen.

I Would

I forgot to say that My Therapist was not available this last Tuesday. This coming Tuesday I will see the Therapist at a different time just for this coming Tuesday. The sad thing is that in February I am going to have to swap Therapists. I would tell you why but it's a little bit too personnel. I will however say that I am going to miss my current Therapist a lot for this Therapist is really good and gets me. Then I have to start from scratch with the new one well I really don' have a say in the matter. It is what it is. Don't you just hate that saying. lol

Say It

I hate to say it but Blogger is going a little bit Spaz at the moment. I am no too sure how long this is going to go on for. Hopefully not long. Bloody Blogger.