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I just had a glass of Red Wine. I am posting and I was like I want a drink. Here we go again. I think posting makes me thirsty. Not in the conventional sense. I mean for Alcohol. I remember when I use to go onto the Forums there was this one Girl that was always drinking Vod and Orenge. (In other words Vodka and Orange juice) Which makes me thirsty just thinking of it. Unfortunately I drank all my Vodka sometime ago and I am poor at the moment for I haven't received money for awhile now. So I will have to make a plan and see if I can get more money to buy Vodka. Most of the time I spend all my money on booze. I sound like an Alcoholic. The only way I feel I can really be myself is when I have Me Time and drink at the same time. I will sneak a drink in every now and then. Don't forget that I am on Hectic anti Depression Meds amongst others. So most of the time if not all the time I do not feel myself. So the only thing that allows me to feel myself is when I booze. Which in of itself seems to be strange but it works. I also stop feeling numb.