Bad Space

I cant say that I am in a good Space mentally at the moment. I am thinking that there is no real point in continuing to try living under all the subterfuge. I mean that if you don't ever see a chance of being able to Come Out and truly live as you would want to. Then why torment yourself by trying to do it on the sneak. Its like dreaming of something that you know will never come to pass. Now how is that for a Brain Twister. its like you just have to face Facts.