Cool

Say Hi to Sammi for me. I got an appointment with my Therapist next week. Now for some they are going damn whats the big deal. Well for someone in the closet to do all the sneaking around its huge. As well as the fact that its quite far from me and just around the corner is this place where I get all my G-Strings from. So the Girl gets to go out see her Therapist and buy G Strings. Now what more can a Girl ask for.

Cool

So I got it going again. Cool. Being thinking a lot about the differences between trans Girls and Women. Now lets say A Trans Girl gets all the necessary things done like gets rid of all the unwanted fur. Then she starts on a course of Hormones and then begins to develop Boobs. Then if she has money she has Facial Feminising done and a couple of other procedures to help the whole package to come together. Then here comes the kicker She does not Have the Male Genitalia removed and converted. Now we have trans Girl No 2. She goes through all the same processes and then has her Male Genitalia converted into Female Genitalia. Here comes the question Who is Trans and Who is not. And if the one is not Trans then what is She?

Ok

Ok I am feeling allot like myself now. Well the non sick part of me. Thank goodness the visit to the Dentist worked. Which I have to say was bloody expensive. I am saying goodbye to someone I have come to know this weekend they are returning to their country of origin. It always amazes me how people float in and out of your life. I never pretend that the relationship will last longer than it does while they are around. Since we all move on.It is very rarely that you continue with a relationship afterward especially when the  relationship is along distant one. Even with my Sister I notice that as the years progress we are drifting further and further apart. As for my Therapist hasn't gotten back to me yet. lol.

Not

So not so true. My tooth which happens to be my wisdom tooth is taking sometime to settle. Got to tell you I had forgotten how bad a toothache can get. Had to take Pain Meds twice last night. I put in for a request to see my Therapist next week. Just waiting for him to confirm it. I have been thinking about getting some Nickers next week when I go and see my Therapist because there is a really cool shop just around the corner. Where I normally get my G Strings from. So next week I will be having a long Girls Vac for 5 Nights which is very cool. Cant wait. I am well prepared.

Done

So done and dusted. Hopefully it will take the filling that is. it was a bit too sensitive. So the Dentist was concerned whether the might be a problem with the nerve. So got to give it a couple of days to see.

Not Even

Pain does not even begin to describe what I am feeling now. Almost time to see the Dentist. Cant wait. I the Dr Kevorkian form of treatment is the best at this monetary in time.

Lol

So I now have a toothache. Thankfully I have made an appointment to go see a Dentist after this weekend. Which will be On Monday. For the moment I am not really sleeping well at night. Had to take a nap to catch up.What really interests me now is that if there is a conversion scale from men's clothes into women's? Well at least a reliable one.

Becoming Johanna Trailer

Trailer for the third film in the Youth and Gender Media Project series. The film is currently in production and will be finished early next year. Go to www.imjustanneke.com for more information.

So

So I am back thank goodness. So this will be my last night of my short Girls Vac.You would be proud of me since I went all out for my two nights of freedom. My next one is going to be a staggering Five Night of freedom. So I have prepared for the next one. In advance.So the panties that I bought not so long ago are so awesome in as far as the fit goes. So i am hoping that I will still be able to find some more. Its just I am not that keen on the color of the other ones. Its that granny support garments flesh tone color. but the fit is awesome so I will just have to live with the color. So last night I got so trashed. possibly because I did not have the Internet to distract me. I had to go to bed since I was so trashed. lol. So as I said this was training for the real next big Girls Vac. I tried out a new nail Polish this time. Its kinda a Midnight Blue. Which is really awesome. Unfortunately I have to take it off tomorrow. I am still thinking of getting some lipstick. So I am thinking of getting something a bit risque. I am not to sure that I will be able to pull it off since most of the places that provide the stuff I am thinking of getting are net based. So I will try and find a shop that could get it in for me. Now I got you wondering just what is she speaking about. I might reveal what I am talking about or just keep you guessing. A girl has to have her secrets. Believe me I have many. Lol. So its good to be back.

You Wont Believe

Well my ADSL line went on Holiday. So for the last Four days I have had no Internet whatsoever. So I have allot of catching up to do. So don't worry I haven't disappeared.

I Got Myself Started

So i got to thinking again which for a blonde is dangerous occupation. I remember reading about a Tribe that when a child is born do not assign a gender to the child irrespective of what is happening between the legs. Which I have to say is very healthy. On the other hand there are tribes in Africa that circumcise their woman. Which leads to complications one among them is being incontinent. Ok the first one was brilliant we should have a time machine go back to find that person who came up with that and Give them every award we have. Oscar, Grammy, Nobel you name it. Now for the latter person that came up with that ludicrous idea of circumcision of female. That person needs to hunted down and slowly tortured over many days and not allowed to die until they realize what a heinous idea that was. Now what I want to know is. Who are these Noodles that decide to impose all these ridiculous customs, traditions etc on humanity? What were they thinking and even today what are they thinking? Or maybe more importantly are they thinking at all?

I Don't Know

I don't know or I don't know yet how to explain what it is like what we go through. How do you explain to some What is like to dream of something that is not manifest in reality and possibly will never be the same as its in your mind. I suppose that is why allot of Trans Girls are still unhappy after Transition. Because the anticipation in reality is never the same as it is in the mind. Is it unrealistic to dream I think not. For what else would we live for if we did not have hope?

Anticipation

I think its the anticipation of something that drives one nuts. Expecting something to happen a specific thing to happen in a specific way. Or is it that something might not actually turn out the way you would wish it to.

It Helps

It really helps if you find someone you can relate and build a relationship with. It does not even have to be in the flesh it can be over the Net. Obviously you have to be careful. So for instance http://www.lauras-playground.com/ is a good place since their Moderators are forever preset and wont stand for anything or anyone being inappropriate even keeping the Trolls out. Obviously it take awhile to build up relationships so be patient at least you will be speaking to Family. This link works so try it out.

Being Trans

Being Trans does not necessarily mean you going find a place to fit into a subculture. If you think of normal circumstances. (I use Normal very hesitantly here, lets say for a lack of a better word ) So back to Society if you had difficulty fitting in there it is no guarantee just because your Trans that your going to find a place to fit in with the Trans Community. All I am saying is that your expectations must be realistic. I certainly will not go out of may way to make some accept me. Just as much as if nobody ever read this Blog it would not make a difference to me. Strangely enough I kinda feel  happier when that is the case. Life is too short to worry about whether your accepted by People who at the end of the day don't give a damn about you. Don't even get me started on the "Normal" thing.