About Time

So we are making some headway. At least they let our Girl Into the pageant. Now wouldn't be something if she won. How cool would that be. So yeah back to the normal life. Which I have to say is a bit strange. I am still trying to get used to not have my time. I suppose that's what happens with the longer Girl vacs.

Cool

Miss Universe Canada Pageant Accepts Trans Contestant Jenna Talackova

POSTED BY KEVIN FARRELL ON MAR 21, 2012 IN INSPIRGAYTION | 19 COMMENTS

Jenna Talackova: Beauty queen

The Donald Trump-owned Miss Universe franchise has accepted its first trans pageant contestant, 23-year-old Jenna Talackova.

The 6’1″ blond underwent sexual reassignment surgery in 2010 after years of hormone therapy which began when she was 14.

Under Canadian law, Jenna is legally a woman, and thus legally able to participate in the beauty queen competition. Not that Trump or anyone else is even suggesting she be barred from participating. The Apprentice firer-in-chief may have a pathetic stance on LGBT rights, but he knows a ratings gold money-maker when he sees one. Or sees her, in this case.

Very Interesting

So this is the deal. had she had put down that she was a Tgirl there was no way they would have let her in. now this makes more interesting is the fact that she qualified to get in. HULLO.

MAILONLINE http://www.dailymail.co.uk

'She was dishonest': Pageant organizers deny discrimination after kicking out transgender beauty queen saying instead she lied on the application form

By LAURA PULLMAN

PUBLISHED: 03:49 GMT, 27 March 2012 | UPDATED: 03:51 GMT, 27 March 2012

Dishonest: Pageant organizers are standing by their decision to kick Jenna Talackova out of the competition because she lied saying she was naturally born a female on the application

Pageant organizers deny charges of discrimination and say that the reason why a male-to-female transgender contestant could not compete because she lied on her application.

The Miss Universe Canada organizers threw out Jenna Talackova when they found out she had undergone surgery to become a woman.

'She was dishonest,' said Denis Davila, the director of Miss Universe Canada.

The transgendered contestant had already successfully reached the finals in the Miss Vancouver pageant before she was banned from continuing in the competition.

After becoming suspicious, Mr Davila questioned Ms Talackova, 23, who said that, even though she written on her application that she had been born a female, that was not the case.

'We have to have the facts straight. There is no discrimination here at all,' Mr Davila said.

'You can look at it the way she wants to look at it, but we all have to follow the same rules.'

Following her expulsion from the competition, organizers have faced much criticism with many fans saying that they were blatantly discriminatory.

Over 20,000 people have signed a virtual petition on Change.org calling for organizers to reverse their decision.

They responded describing Ms Talackova as a ‘real girl’ they disqualified her arguing that the rules state that each contestant must be a ‘naturally born female.

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2120880/Jenna-Talackova-Transgender-beauty-queen-kicked-Miss-Universe-Canada-pageant-dishonest-lied-application.html#ixzz1qZxrXimc

Again

So my Life is back to its usual mundane existence. I think that if we were to party everyday for six months. We would either end up in hospital or never want to party again. More importantly there is only so much sex you can have in day. Even the body has its limitations. Hence the need for the mundane. it gives us something to look forward to. like my next Girls Vac. Which I am not too sure when it will be. So  I had to throw some more panties away. But no big deal for I get them for next to nothing. its just there is such a big differences in sizes. its quite frustrating. Since the stores will not exchange them. Which I have to say I fully understand because I don't what other people crotches have been up to or when the last time they had a thorough valet service. Lol.


"Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months."
Oscar Wilde

Thanks

I am actually thankful that today is the last day of My Girls Vac. I am tired and my body is tired from partying too much. So between now and the next one I will give myself time to recuperate. There is only so much Partying a Girl can take. Anyway so I have to take all the Nail Polish off. Pack my Girls Nick Nacks away. And assume my normal role!!

Strange

Ok this is going to sound a bit strange. But I have The Tranny Porn Stars for helping me find and identify my Sexuality. I cant see myself as going Stealth if I were ever to Transition. People must know that I am Trans and Proud to be so. I refuse to be some Grey Suburban Non Descript Female. I know that it works for others and it takes all kinds to make the world. it is just not for me.

Aaahhhh

Day 3 second last full day of Vac. Watched "Little Deaths " last night. Not quite for the faint of heart. Although not an all out Horror it is a little bit disturbing. I did not realize it was going to be like that. Anyway had to throw a panty away today since it was too big. No big deal since it cost me next to nothing.

Yes

My cupboard overfloweth with panties of all sorts of varieties. So the Girl is ecstatic. Just need to get the body into a bit actually better shape. Cant say that I have not been enjoying my short time of freedom. So Second Day. Watched "Anonymous" last night which deals with William Shakespeare. As the Japanese say "Very Interesting". My therapist and I were discussing the issue of Trans Girls being Self Involved bordering on Narcissism.Which is very interesting topic. Since it cuts to the quick.

First Day

So yes I have a slight hangover. Not really sure why I get smashed on the First Night always. Like last time I was really wasted. I watched a dvd last night "BloodRayne The Third Reich". It was so bad that I felt embarrassed for the Actors in it. Anyway Yes I went to My Therapist yesterday. What I realize is that I have come into my Own. Firstly I am not a Woman. I am a Trans Sexual. This I arrived at on my own and no prodding from the Therapist. I also went in search of my G strings. But unfortunately they no longer have them. Because they are so comfortable. I will however endeavor to go out tomorrow in search for them at another place. If they don't have them then i have to give up searching for them.

Ok

Ok so its on I am on Holiday. Well am on the hunt for a Epilator. but a specific one the Epilady Epilator. Which is rated as the best out there. Then again I stand under correction. This is just for the few patches that I can get away with shaving. I am just tired of the razor rash. So I am going to try an Epilator.

Awesome

So tomorrow is the first day of my Girls Vac. Can't wait. plus I see my Therapist tomorrow. Which helps because then at least I get to talk to someone alive as me about me. It really does sound weird but its like winning the Lotto. Well not really more like having a good Glass of Chilled Champagne. And I love my Champagne. Plus I get to see if I can get some new G Stings. Maybe even some lipstick but we will see about that.

Ouch

Well I was thinking which hurts allot. Lol. Since I am Blonde. So here goes we know that allot of Sportsman shave different parts of their Bodies for what ever reason. Now we know that shaved parts of the body become Silkier especially if you look after them. Meaning putting cream etc on them. Even more so if you do the Waxing or Electrolysis. Now here is the question does it not threaten their Masculinity.Do they still feel Virile. Or is the Testosterone filled cave man coming into his own. Well with Metrosexuals occupying some prominent places in Society. I would hazard a guess and say the Cave man is under Threat. Well I can think that in certain parts of the World that will never happen. We wont mention them. But just thinking about it is enough to get me going.

Yum

So I was running around today. I had gone past this Sex Shop previously thinking that it was only lingerie. So I decided to pop in today. Please remember that I am in the Closet. So I am not too sure what they think I am doing in the shop. Anyway they have these Tanga cum G String panties. that are awesome. Probably the best I have ever seen. A little expensive but really Delicious. So I suppose you can hear my mind kicking into gear. You are also probably thinking whats up with the Panties. Well I don't have Boobs which is obvious. So then only other thing I can do is do the Panty thing which in my mind is delicious. Especially if they are form fitting and made of really luxurious material. Well two days left to my 5 Day long Girls vac. Yahooo!

Not Enough

I thought I would just explain the not Enough Part of my earlier Post. Its not enough One Night for me to do all the things I would want to do. There is no point in me painting My Nails Only to have to take it off a matter of hours later. The Longer Girls Vac's are better since then I can Let Go properly. I really don't know what I would do if I did not have these breaks every now and then. I almost feel myself waiting in Anticipation to hear when next I get to be alone by Myself. I know that it must seem trivial to focus on just a few days to be able to let your hair down. But believe me you take every moment that you can be yourself with out getting caught as a Gift. I know it sounds trite but it is true.

Sore

So I was at the Gym to day. I thought let me do two sets of cycling. Only to discover half way through the second set My Bum was so Numb and Sore I had to stop. Lol. So much for that. So Its the One Nighter. Which is not much but at least I get to let down My hair down for a Night. Lol. Because I have to say that the Deception etc is starting to wear me down. It really is tough keeping it going.

Small

So a Small Girls Vac tomorrow. A one Nighter. The big one at the end of the weekend.

Cabaret

So went to see a cabaret last night. There was this one Girl that I was like . Ok now that is what I would hope to look like. Same height as me same body type. Obviously some curves missing from the right places. Well i suppose its nice to dream.

Cool

Say Hi to Sammi for me. I got an appointment with my Therapist next week. Now for some they are going damn whats the big deal. Well for someone in the closet to do all the sneaking around its huge. As well as the fact that its quite far from me and just around the corner is this place where I get all my G-Strings from. So the Girl gets to go out see her Therapist and buy G Strings. Now what more can a Girl ask for.

Cool

So I got it going again. Cool. Being thinking a lot about the differences between trans Girls and Women. Now lets say A Trans Girl gets all the necessary things done like gets rid of all the unwanted fur. Then she starts on a course of Hormones and then begins to develop Boobs. Then if she has money she has Facial Feminising done and a couple of other procedures to help the whole package to come together. Then here comes the kicker She does not Have the Male Genitalia removed and converted. Now we have trans Girl No 2. She goes through all the same processes and then has her Male Genitalia converted into Female Genitalia. Here comes the question Who is Trans and Who is not. And if the one is not Trans then what is She?

Ok

Ok I am feeling allot like myself now. Well the non sick part of me. Thank goodness the visit to the Dentist worked. Which I have to say was bloody expensive. I am saying goodbye to someone I have come to know this weekend they are returning to their country of origin. It always amazes me how people float in and out of your life. I never pretend that the relationship will last longer than it does while they are around. Since we all move on.It is very rarely that you continue with a relationship afterward especially when the  relationship is along distant one. Even with my Sister I notice that as the years progress we are drifting further and further apart. As for my Therapist hasn't gotten back to me yet. lol.

Not

So not so true. My tooth which happens to be my wisdom tooth is taking sometime to settle. Got to tell you I had forgotten how bad a toothache can get. Had to take Pain Meds twice last night. I put in for a request to see my Therapist next week. Just waiting for him to confirm it. I have been thinking about getting some Nickers next week when I go and see my Therapist because there is a really cool shop just around the corner. Where I normally get my G Strings from. So next week I will be having a long Girls Vac for 5 Nights which is very cool. Cant wait. I am well prepared.

Done

So done and dusted. Hopefully it will take the filling that is. it was a bit too sensitive. So the Dentist was concerned whether the might be a problem with the nerve. So got to give it a couple of days to see.

Not Even

Pain does not even begin to describe what I am feeling now. Almost time to see the Dentist. Cant wait. I the Dr Kevorkian form of treatment is the best at this monetary in time.

Lol

So I now have a toothache. Thankfully I have made an appointment to go see a Dentist after this weekend. Which will be On Monday. For the moment I am not really sleeping well at night. Had to take a nap to catch up.What really interests me now is that if there is a conversion scale from men's clothes into women's? Well at least a reliable one.

Becoming Johanna Trailer

Trailer for the third film in the Youth and Gender Media Project series. The film is currently in production and will be finished early next year. Go to www.imjustanneke.com for more information.

So

So I am back thank goodness. So this will be my last night of my short Girls Vac.You would be proud of me since I went all out for my two nights of freedom. My next one is going to be a staggering Five Night of freedom. So I have prepared for the next one. In advance.So the panties that I bought not so long ago are so awesome in as far as the fit goes. So i am hoping that I will still be able to find some more. Its just I am not that keen on the color of the other ones. Its that granny support garments flesh tone color. but the fit is awesome so I will just have to live with the color. So last night I got so trashed. possibly because I did not have the Internet to distract me. I had to go to bed since I was so trashed. lol. So as I said this was training for the real next big Girls Vac. I tried out a new nail Polish this time. Its kinda a Midnight Blue. Which is really awesome. Unfortunately I have to take it off tomorrow. I am still thinking of getting some lipstick. So I am thinking of getting something a bit risque. I am not to sure that I will be able to pull it off since most of the places that provide the stuff I am thinking of getting are net based. So I will try and find a shop that could get it in for me. Now I got you wondering just what is she speaking about. I might reveal what I am talking about or just keep you guessing. A girl has to have her secrets. Believe me I have many. Lol. So its good to be back.

You Wont Believe

Well my ADSL line went on Holiday. So for the last Four days I have had no Internet whatsoever. So I have allot of catching up to do. So don't worry I haven't disappeared.

I Got Myself Started

So i got to thinking again which for a blonde is dangerous occupation. I remember reading about a Tribe that when a child is born do not assign a gender to the child irrespective of what is happening between the legs. Which I have to say is very healthy. On the other hand there are tribes in Africa that circumcise their woman. Which leads to complications one among them is being incontinent. Ok the first one was brilliant we should have a time machine go back to find that person who came up with that and Give them every award we have. Oscar, Grammy, Nobel you name it. Now for the latter person that came up with that ludicrous idea of circumcision of female. That person needs to hunted down and slowly tortured over many days and not allowed to die until they realize what a heinous idea that was. Now what I want to know is. Who are these Noodles that decide to impose all these ridiculous customs, traditions etc on humanity? What were they thinking and even today what are they thinking? Or maybe more importantly are they thinking at all?

I Don't Know

I don't know or I don't know yet how to explain what it is like what we go through. How do you explain to some What is like to dream of something that is not manifest in reality and possibly will never be the same as its in your mind. I suppose that is why allot of Trans Girls are still unhappy after Transition. Because the anticipation in reality is never the same as it is in the mind. Is it unrealistic to dream I think not. For what else would we live for if we did not have hope?

Anticipation

I think its the anticipation of something that drives one nuts. Expecting something to happen a specific thing to happen in a specific way. Or is it that something might not actually turn out the way you would wish it to.

It Helps

It really helps if you find someone you can relate and build a relationship with. It does not even have to be in the flesh it can be over the Net. Obviously you have to be careful. So for instance http://www.lauras-playground.com/ is a good place since their Moderators are forever preset and wont stand for anything or anyone being inappropriate even keeping the Trolls out. Obviously it take awhile to build up relationships so be patient at least you will be speaking to Family. This link works so try it out.

Being Trans

Being Trans does not necessarily mean you going find a place to fit into a subculture. If you think of normal circumstances. (I use Normal very hesitantly here, lets say for a lack of a better word ) So back to Society if you had difficulty fitting in there it is no guarantee just because your Trans that your going to find a place to fit in with the Trans Community. All I am saying is that your expectations must be realistic. I certainly will not go out of may way to make some accept me. Just as much as if nobody ever read this Blog it would not make a difference to me. Strangely enough I kinda feel  happier when that is the case. Life is too short to worry about whether your accepted by People who at the end of the day don't give a damn about you. Don't even get me started on the "Normal" thing.