Some How

I am slowly amalgamating with the Trans side of me. This Probably does not make sense but My personas are kinda taking a back Seat. I just have to make sure that none of the Feminine gestures etc come out. Its more like that I have taken the stance that for the Moment I have taken On An Androgynous mind Set. Making it easier to cope with the being in The Closet.plus getting used to the Meds has taken awhile. Still getting used to them and trying to recoup all that I lost going on these Meds. Believe it really does change you. I would not be able to describe the total extent as to how. Yet I will say that it does even you Out. So your not too much on one side but in the Middle. For Instance your not Depressed as much as you were but at the same time your not Happy. Your stuck in the Middle between the two emotions or States. So it takes getting used to. That's why I said I have try and Recoup that which I have lost of Myself. If this does not make too much sense. Then I am Sorry for this really is no other way I can Explain it. It really needs to be experienced.