Sometimes

Just every now and then or quite a lot do I wish that this was all over.No I don't mean committing suicide although the thought has crossed My Mind. I just wish everything could be normalized. That I just could all of this over. It is no fun being depressed its no fun being stuck in the closet. Its nor fun not having any T Girls for Friends and I mean live in the Flesh. It no fun not having any friends too turn to that know who you are and what your going through. Plus to have to watch all these T Girls that are living there lives out in the open is even worse. Not that I am not happy for them. I am grateful that there are those that can be themselves. Plus your gonna hear this time and time again for its something I have to deal with on a ongoing basis. it never changes for me. Sometimes I am just more aware of it than others it does not mean that its not there.